u/Vivid_Chemical_9417

Bahahahaha... of course this would be in one of Skeeven or L's page... "Toxic Exes".

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I got sober in 2020, relapsed on kratom and alcohol for a short bit in 2023-24. I had never had a seizure before and at 47 years old I started having seizures about once a month. I was honest and told my neurologist and my doctors, quit everything again for about another year, and then around the first of this year I thought it would be smart to take it “just a few times” (like that ever works) and here I am months later, had a seizure two nights ago after being seizure free for a year and a half. I am still on meds for seizures but need to quit this now sooner than later. I take approx 15 capsules of it a day maybe? I’ve been trying to do my healthier supplements and vitamins but am staring down the barrel of another “withdrawal” like a dumbass. It has to be because of the kratom and at the ER the nurse surprisingly knew about kratom, and talk to me quietly away from my kids (thankfully) and so now I have to taper, faster than I had planned. This one was am rough I am bruised and sore everywhere and I can’t just stop because I have to get thru everyday and sounds good to “STOP” for people that don’t know what that entails, it’s not that easy. Anyway I’ve been reading here for a while and just wanted to maybe start talking about it so I do what needs to be done. I want to do this myself but I always end up talking to my sponsor but today I am feeling hopeless and scared, my kids have seen me seize quite a few times, now I don’t wanna go down the stairs when there isn’t anyone in the house because God forbid I have a seizure walking down the stairs! I told my kids they might need to get me a LIFE ALERT button 😂 I joke because I know I screwed up and now it’s time to pay the piper.

Help or guidance or anyone's experience they can share?

Turns out that saying "I don't need help" a million times over and over, doesn't help. I am at a loss now. I am a single Mom, fighting the ex because he stopped paying child support abruptly in Feb without warning. EVERYTHING fell behind. All the debts I normally pay at the first of the year, I pay with my bonus and hold for thru the year for backup. Now I am screwed and still going to court every 3 weeks to TRY and hold him accountable but in the meantime? I am paying rent and bills (phone electric, gas and internet because I work at home) I had taken an Opp Loan out and the pay in 4's (zip, Four, etc.) and now I had to stop paying and got a new account until I can get things back to a little more balanced so I can start paying back but in the meantime I have my bank account that has no autopayments attached to it that i use for paychecks. So having two loans Opp Loans and UpLoans or something then Pay in 4's does anyone have any suggestions on how to begin to plan on getting caught up once the sperm donor is ordered again to pay child support. I don't know where to start and so I am posting here in hopes that someone can at least tell me what they did, or how to deal with them because I am totally overwhelmed and need to get back on track. Thanks !!