u/W_ateva

edit: I want to think everybody for commenting or dming me. I’ve been in a pretty rough spiral tonight and getting some attention from you guys has genuinely made me feel a lot better. thanks

I started a business five years ago that was wildly more successful than I could’ve ever imagined. I own a house, I bought all of my favorite cars, I have a boat(that I only bought because I thought it would help me make friends)

I don’t have many friends. I don’t have a girlfriend. I never made a lot of friends in high school or anything and what few friends i had have moved out of the country. my business completely encompasses my life on the weekdays, and I don’t have any friends so the weekends just disappear while I stare at a wall or troll on dating apps.

My house is a wreck and full of unfinished projects. almost every one of my cars is taken apart and is an unfinished project of it’s own.

I have 1 million things that I need to do to improve my quality of life, but I’m too lonely to do them? If that makes any sense? I spend most of my free time on dating apps going on the absolute worst dates. I’m talking dates so bad my one friend I still keep up with told me I should write a memoir about them.

I feel completely alienated. i’m lonely, i’m tired. i want attention.

there is no end in sight and every day gets worse. i have a complete mental breakdown daily or every other day. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do to feel better. my psychiatrist told me he doesn’t think ssris work on me. I don’t think that my problem is that I’m depressed, I think my problem is that my life is horrible.