Trapped in my head
There is so much stuff happening in my head, i unfortunately live in my head, a better way to put it is im trapped in my head. I really need help, not just want, i need it, i feel like this time im actually on the edge..I feel so bad everyday, both physically and mentally, in the last year or two there haven’t been a day when nothing hurt or nothing about my body and how i feel bothered me, there haven’t been a day when i dont feel doom. But the thing is, i cannot even bring myself to at least write out how i feel, like my problems, the stuff that i need help with. I cant say it out loud, cant bring myself to write it out. I dont know why, it feels like i have no energy to do that, but i feel like at this point of life i am just so close to hitting the rock bottom, that i am in need of help, but if i cant voice what i need help with, im not going to get it, but i cant voice it..its just a continuous loop from which i cant find a way out. (Sorry for incoherent writing i just feel horrible my brain is giving out thats what it feels like)