u/Waste-Associate5773

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I would play the Pokies a fair bit over the last few years, it really kicked up a gear in the last 12 months

I told myself I was going to stop because I just didn't want to do it anymore, it would consume me

The first few days were really hard, mostly because I was bored, I didn't realise how much time it took up

I was struggling a bit an ad popped up for one of those slot machine games. At first I didnt download it because I thought it would make me want to play it more.

Eventually I caved and downloaded it.

It's so bizarre, now I prefer to play the slot machine on my phone instead of the real one

I think I prefer the game aspect of it. Now this way I can play and not lose money.

It's been about two months now, I play the app a bit but I'm happy with it. As long as I'm not spending my own money

Today I was playing the Pokies/Slots.

I was up $200 and I was going to stop. I had ordered a drink and was waiting for the waitress to bring it.

I thought to myself "Good, you've stopped" and was actually proud

They were taking a while, so I played on. I lost the money I won and another $150. Nowhere near the most I've ever lost but it annoyed me.

Why can't I just stop

I want to, I really really want to but it's so hard