Ever since I got my machine, my coffee hasn't tasted the best. Almost bitter? Mildly Sour? I use quality, fresh beans and I've tried plenty of different ones so I know it's not the beans. I believe grind size is on 16?
Not sure if it's the basket I'm using? I always do a double shot iced espresso.
Am I missing something?
I have a feeling I was abused sexually as a baby or young child by my dad or grandfather... I don't have any memory of it happening but a few things make me feel this way.
I block out my whole childhood and have cut off a lot of my family. I get emotional when I think or talk about my childhood or my dad whom I no longer speak to. I am into CNC sex. I acted out as a child and went for older men. I cut people off and out of my life quickly. I don't really get emotionally attached to people easily. I'm distant. I used to be SUPER awkward during sex with boyfriends and just randomly freeze half way through.
I encouraged my sibling into sexual acts when I was young. I don't remember exactly how old but I was really young. Maybe 8-10 years old. I don't even know where I would have learned this from?
Yesterday is what really changed things for me - my aunt whom Ive only met one time prior to this asked me if my dad ever touched me inappropriately as a child. I was confused and wasn't sure how to answer because I don't remember ever being touched. She said she is asking because he touched HER when they were children so she just wanted to check in essentially. I have a feeling my dad was abused by his dad and this is where he learned this behaviour at such a young age.
I feel dirty and gross and sad about the whole thing. I don't feel comfortable asking my mom or dad or anyone else in my family if it happened to me. How will I ever know? Does it sound like I was abused based on this information? The more I think about it the more I think I was..
My son just turned 10mo old. For the past two weeks, he wants breastmilk (for comfort, not hunger) non-stop from the hours of roughly 3am-7am. If I try to unlatch he wakes up and cries until I re-latch.
This is not normal for him, he usually wakes up 1-2 times a night for BM and eats quickly before falling back asleep.
I feel so drained and I'm starting to hate the feeling of my nipples being sucked on all night.
Is this normal? Is it some kind of 10mo sleep regression? Has anyone had any experience with this or have any advise for me?
Thanks