Subconscious refusing to be convinced
Hello, I have been trying for so long to change my reality. I have read every neville book, tried every technique etc so I am very familair with all of this. I have managed to manifest a few stuff but like it was always meaningless manifestations, however these increased my faith/conviction.
I have been trying for so long to change my concept of self, get my person back (or even some other uknown person), get more money, generally improve my life.
It's like my subconscious mind is refusing to be convinced about anything I try. Like literally, its been 2 years. There are so many things I have tried fixing, even making my goals more believable but nothing has worked regarding changed that would actually impact my reality.
I have read almost every thread in these subreddit and others as well. I realise that the only good that has happened in my life was a manifestation of me and that my state then was better. Ive dwelled in that state and tried everything but gotten nothing.