What even is modern dating??
I just don’t know what I am doing wrong when it comes to dating it’s genuinely crushing my soul little by little
So I matched with this girl a week and a half ago (she liked me first) and I know that’s not a long time but we messaged back and forth text messages that were like 25 lines and over (a couple times a day so t’s wasn’t like it was overwhelming either just long in-depth messages)
Their was mutual interest, questions that weren’t just small talk, reciprocating each others effort, compatibility with everything like lifestyle, dating goals, views on relationships
I suggested meeting up that weekend she says she can’t cause of a family obligation but that she does want to meet up to chat and she can do the weekend after, so I got my hopes up, this had felt like the best start to something I had ever experienced on an app in 4 years of using them
Anyway none of that is why I am venting it’s just context so basically what happened is that I replied to her Saturday didn’t hear anything back Saturday, Sunday or Monday and I thought oh that’s concerning but might just be because of that family obligation she mentioned or she is busy I will give her till Tuesday night to reply to me and then check in
Anyway Tuesday happens and I get some horrible news about a loved one and end up spending all evening and night in the ICU
Where there is no Wi-Fi only data
But I get a notification from her Tuesday as I am in the car to the hospital which is the photo attached (“Thank for sharing about your…”) and that is all I can read of it I don’t open it cause I’m not in that headspace and don’t think I even can because of the Wi-Fi stuff (I’m using HER and as you guys know it is glitchy as hell) so feel it’s better to wait
But I get back around midnight and go to open the message just cause I am curious what it says and I go onto the app and she has just disappeared completely and so has our chat history so I can’t see what her last message was!!! And it’s driving me insane
Like I don’t care ghost me, unmatch me but don’t send me a message I can never read but can only wonder what it said!!!
I can barely sleep cause all my mind can do is go over each possibility of what it said
Actually might be my worst experience dating so far and that’s a high bar like obviously I already felt so emotional with what’s happening with my loved one it just felt like being kicked when I was down
I just feel like I have been made a fool of again
I just feel like a lot of you on dating apps forget that the person on the other end is a person too
I guess a small part of me hopes she sees this feels called out and messages me the rest of the message so I can shut my brain off about it but I guess I have to learn to live without that closure
Sorry for the vent but I just needed to vent about this I know it’s pathetic