u/Western_Swan_1273

Hey! Is there anyone at NYUAD who offers consultation sessions? I'm happy to pay.

Preferably someone from Central Asia.

It's a long story. Please don't judge me. I'm already judging myself.

Our country is a secular state, and few young people take religion seriously.

I've been dating a guy for three years. At first, he had pure and sincere intentions. I always told him that if he wasn't serious, he should be with someone else.

He promised to marry me and start a family. He asked how I could still not trust him after three years.

So we committed acts close to zina because I trusted him and was afraid of losing him. There was no penetration, and I'm still a virgin, but we crossed boundaries.

I asked Allah for forgiveness and then sinned again.

I've never felt so ashamed. My boyfriend says he gives his guarantee, but he isn't willing to marry me now. Instead, he asks me to stay pure for him (he asks me not to talk to, befriend, or pursue a relationship with any other man)

I've dreamed of marriage and a family since childhood. Because he was my first love, I believed he was my destiny.

Now I don't know what to do. Do I deserve happiness? I sincerely repent, pray Tahajjud, and ask Allah for forgiveness. Do I still have a chance at a happy marriage?

There's no proof of what happened, but I struggle to imagine trusting another man. Should I pray for Allah to bless me with marriage to my current boyfriend?

It's a long story. Please don't judge me. I'm already judging myself.

Our country is a secular state, and few young people take religion seriously.

I've been dating a guy for three years. At first, he had pure and sincere intentions. I always told him that if he wasn't serious, he should be with someone else.

He promised to marry me and start a family. He asked how I could still not trust him after three years.

So we committed acts close to zina because I trusted him and was afraid of losing him. There was no penetration, and I'm still a virgin, but we crossed boundaries.

I asked Allah for forgiveness and then sinned again.

I've never felt so ashamed. My boyfriend says he gives his guarantee, but he isn't willing to marry me now. Instead, he asks me to stay pure for him (he asks me not to talk to, befriend, or pursue a relationship with any other man)

I've dreamed of marriage and a family since childhood. Because he was my first love, I believed he was my destiny.

Now I don't know what to do. Do I deserve happiness? I sincerely repent, pray Tahajjud, and ask Allah for forgiveness. Do I still have a chance at a happy marriage?

There's no proof of what happened, but I struggle to imagine trusting another man. Should I pray for Allah to bless me with marriage to my current boyfriend?