u/WhichCryptographer20

Hello, i am 20 years old and in college for a psychology degree, on track to graduate next year. I have been running a small photography business for the past couple years since high school, and i would say im pretty good at it. i genuinely hate the idea of working in an office job or something where i dont get to be creative but realistically i haven't found anything else that would be stable and allow for the lifestyle i want later in life (ideally wanting to start a family with my bf in the next couple years and possibly stay home/wfh with our future babies). wanting to hear if anyone else with similar passions to me (photography, art, reading, design etc) has been able to make a successful career out of it where they are not extremely burn out. i'm trying to be realistic though and i feel like the older i get im going to have to be unhappy with some part of my career and stop looking for an unrealistic "perfect career" any advice from someone older would be helpful, thanks!

my boyfriend of almost three years and i just had a talk about porn.
for background, i told him at the beginning of our relationship it wasn't okay with me. a little bit after i opened his phone to find it pulled up and it CRUSHED me. back then, neither of us were very devout christian's. now we have made the decision to follow christ again and grow together in our faith. this meant deciding together to stop having sex until we got married. i recently asked him about it (probably for the first time since i caught him) and he said he doesn't watch as much anymore but that the last time was right after we had decided to stop having sex. it made me so sad and defeated the purpose of us stopping for christ. recently he admitting to struggling with lust in front of our whole bible study group which set off alarms in my head and when i asked him about it after he said he hasn't been able to stop still and really wants to try but couldn't promise me that it won't happen again. THAT is what really hurt because it tells me that 1) he's going to do it again knowing how badly it hurts me and our relationship with god. 2) he's values watching it over me and god. i know we all have struggles and it's not my place to judge him. he went about the conversation very calmly and i'm glad he admitted it instead of lying. everything about him aside from this is amazing. i'm just looking for an outside perspective on the situation. i feel in my gut that i shouldn't leave him or anything but i feel so wounded and don't know how to look at him without the distrust and awful feelings overshadowing everything. i feel awful about it because i know so many men struggle with it and i always told myself i would never marry a man who values porn over me, but he's an amazing man who loves god. please give me some perspective

EDIT: just remembered the reason that first time crushed me so much is because it was a blonde hair blue eyed girl (the complete opposite of me)🫠

i recently read the whole powerless series by lauren roberts, and while i think it's an objectively good story, i was dragging through by the end it just wasn't my favorite. i also haven't read red queen but ive heard it's basically a direct copy. did anyone get confused by paedyn and kitts relationship? i couldn't tell if it was supposed to be like a love triangle situation or a brother sister? i know he was jealous of her relationship with his brother. i don't think my media literacy was great in my comprehension of this book because my heart wasn't in the story. can anyone elaborate on what the relationship between pae and kitt was supposed to be? it really confused me. it almost felt to me like a badly done love triangle but i don't think that's accurate.

i recently read the whole powerless series by lauren roberts, and while i think it's an objectively good story, i was dragging through by the end it just wasn't my favorite. i also haven't read red queen but ive heard it's basically a direct copy. did anyone get confused by paedyn and kitts relationship? i couldn't tell if it was supposed to be like a love triangle situation or a brother sister? i know he was jealous of her relationship with his brother. i don't think my media literacy was great in my comprehension of this book because my heart wasn't in the story. can anyone elaborate on what the relationship between pae and kitt was supposed to be? it really confused me. it almost felt to me like a badly done love triangle but i don't think that's accurate.

Okay so i'm just now getting into romance genre of reading this year. i've always been big into fantasy(acotar, tog, all the classics. current read is red rising). I've heard sooo much about boys of tommen and i want to read it because i love nothing more than a book that can make me cry, but i've heard that it won't just make me cry but will traumatize me LOL. Thoughts on this? I'm not super sensitive on darker subjects, like i don't get triggered often really. But anyways yall are making me scareddd about how sad it is. can anyone elaborate on just what that means?

SOMEONE PLS HELP i'm having so much trouble deciding if i should read the windy city series or off campus series next. i'm currently reading the last book in the red rising trilogy and want to dive into romace after since ive always been a huge fantasy reader but after reading so much epic fantasy and plot i want a really good romance that will HOOK me. if anyone's read it i would LOVE to hear thoughts. i also am debating boys of tommen but that might be too traumatizing at the moment lol