Tried everything, there is no way out for me
Hi,
I don’t know why I am writing this and not really looking for any responses either. Maybe just a final vent before leaving, or a warning to anyone starting to struggle with gambling.
I have gambled every single day for the last 16 years. Not one day off, always found the money to play with. I have debts upon debts, and I would never be able to pay even a fraction of them back. We are talking really high six figure debts. To top this off, I am unemployed, have been for years, and unable to work due to my health.
Have already lost everyone close to me, I have no friends left or no close family members.
This is just the end of the road for me. I have tried everything throughout the years, without anything being succesful. I have tried blocking softwares, therapy, groups and medication. None of which have helped me stay off gambling for even a single day. I have also given over my finances to someone close to me in the past, that just made me steal money and lie even more, just to get money to gamble with, and again, no days off gambling.
I guess I hope that this post could reach someone in the future who is on the verge of an addiction and would help them quit, it is unfortunately too late for me.