u/WillingPurple8528

Random KWK popping up on my feed. I genuinely hate how much she puts down ash, not just here but in many other interviews . Everyone knows ash is a better actor and way more successful than him(even he himself). I love Ash’ expressive eyes, and she has been a part of some insanely good projects and is brand on her own, literally a international brand and has done Hollywood projects . This was just one example, Hate the fact that in all interviews she seems to put her down. Feels very wannabe and negative, wouldn’t want someone like her in my family.

Hi.
(Trigger warning: graphic sexual details)
I (28f) came out last year, after trying to date the umpteenth perfect guy and realizing I’ve never felt romantic feelings for guys. It is a very important part of a relationship for me but I defo have felt than for girls many times. I came out to few close friends. I knew I am not bi or pan as I have no interest in being with a man irl.

However I feel like I am definitely attracted to guys physically but not so much in real life , I get turned on by guys enjoy coming off to men. I also always like watching degrading intense porn like ones that has alpha guys and the guy to be dominant. It can get me wet very easily. I also have sex chat to guys anonymously online and cum to it. I esp get turned on by guys objectifying me. It feels like a quick cheap dirty way to cum with, however lesbian porn it is more passionate as drawn out.

However, irl I can never fall in love with a guy in real life or be with one. With woman I’ve had very intense romantic feelings been in love. I find this very bizarre how hard I can come for virtual men and never develop romance and how hard I can love a woman.

Sorry if this is weird. I know I’m not straight and it feels right being gay and imagining a life with a woman but this feels odd

I (28f) started falling in love with my (28f) best friend. This started 5 years ago. We were both immigrants in a different country. We lived together in the same apartment and were bffs for the next 5 years. I was in the closet (in denial to even myself) till last year. I tried dating guys but struggled and came out first to her and she was very supportive and reacted perfectly. I obviously dint tell her I loved her. She was in a 2 year relationship at that point. But even before that I knew she was straight and nothing could happen. What my brain knew my heart struggled with. She was very close to me, used to vent and share everything and I loved it. I thought yes even though we can’t be a couple I love this closeness, I love how I am her best friend. It felt great. It used to burn sometimes when things about her boyfriend happened. It used to hit me in waves but she lived with me while her boyfriend was long distance. I was a fucking idiot. I was addicted to her. Tiny waves of euphoria when she was good to me and spend time with me kept me hooked and I refused to acknowledge the bigger picture. I wish I was addicted to something less damaging than unrequited love. I used to pour my efforts to her and it made me feel good, I used to make her my center.
Unfortunately reality hit. She got married to the love of her life and she was the happiest. It always felt like she was emotionally not as available with me and with him she shows so much love. I hate how that it is logically correct and I’m broken . It felt numb then and it burned seeing them enjoy all the tiny moments. I felt so drained coming home. I slept through the night sobbing. I woke up drained. Everything still feels numb. I don’t know what to do. Everything feels pointless without her. I don’t know what I am going to do with my life and feels like nothing matters without her. I can’t focus on a single thing. If I have a free minute I jump to think of her. I wish I had her. I would do everything in the world to have her. I wish I could stop replaying everything. I wish I knew how to move on.