u/Wise-Artichoke-5648

▲ 0 r/Dying

How I want a charming but menacing witch to rip out my heart.

I don't want to die. I just want to disappear from this world. I want it to be like I was never here. I don't want people to remember anything about me. I don't want no funeral I don't want anyone to cry for me or miss me or say my name when I am gone.

If that could happen I will happily give my heart. Life's overrated anyways. Yeah it's good for someone but for most it's so unfair it's disgusting. Ohh it's fine for me or was fine for me until I made choices so wrong that I don't want to face Tomorrow because I have no idea what I am gonna do. I have heard that when you die the brain releases this hormone that's like the craziest high . I think that could freeze the constant Buzz in my head. The witch part is wierd but when I die I would like to feel a sudden shock in my chest open my eyes for one last time and see a daydream, I would want to feel real hope , real shine and see a smile so beautiful that can't be described. I would wanna smile too without any thought in my mind and then Just close my eyes as my heart gets crushed and my body starts to get cold and my mind finally shuts up ...

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u/Wise-Artichoke-5648 — 2 days ago

Murphy's law is absolute truth.

Honestly, It's just that I want to distract my mind for a bit because the things that are happening to me feel like scripted. Like something is making these things happen just for the fun of it. I keep trying things, different things that can give me like real chances to be able to do something with this life or make me feel better but then literally everything just goes wrong. The more I expect out of things the further they drift. Whenever I hope that this time I am closer than I ever was the next moment everything collapses. Does anyone feel the same here?

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u/Wise-Artichoke-5648 — 2 days ago