u/Wise-General-9632

just recently started a job and i have to stand for almost 8 hours, and do the same thing over and over again and it is physically demanding (i need to move things and so on) and you’re supposed to go at a certain speed and have a quick tempo. basically how do people actually have this type of job for their whole lives, do you just get okay with it or did you find a way to make it go by faster like how can one live like this?

“fuck you ocd”, “theres that guilt story again”, feeling guilty is not proof of guilt”, “ive already thought about this enough” like whats the best sentence that dismisses your ocd thoughts or do you just let the thoughts come up and pass without saying anything back? if i dont say anything back or try to dismiss it, it feels like im agreeing with the thoughts or i am somehow wrong for not correcting myself or try to justify it

every time i get to the bottom of my loop like real event ocd and i “clear” my name because objectively it doesn’t seem like i did anything that bad i just get this what if questions that pop up like what if the person saw it differently and i hurt them or what if i missed a detail or what if i dont remember everything. the worst one is probably blacking out from alcohol (i dont drink anymore) and not being able to remember anything so the what if questions just run wild and i just cant stop thinking what if i did the worst possible thing.

how do u deal with these types of questions/loops?? is the answer really just trying to accept the thoughts and saying “okay this is my ocd ive thought about this enough already”

basically im missing like 3-5 hours of memory when i was blackout drunk.

some of my friends saw me and said i was acting weird and i asked what was i doing and they just said dancing (im assuming i was just acting very drunk and dancing weirdly as one does) and then they said one of my acquaintances took me somewhere, im guessing to our mutual “friends” (not really friends i just knew them).

okay so im scared i did something wrong and outside my morals (i have very strong morals so i would hope they’re still there even when blackout drunk but i cant be 100% certain)

should i ask those “friends” i think i was with if they know anything about this but at least now that i dont know i can assume i was with them and if ask and they didn’t even see me that night i would have even a worse conscience. should i just let destiny take care of it and if i ever see them again then i can ask them in person (i haven’t spoken to them in like a year)

basically im having anxiety about a night i was blackout and im wondering if i should just text the people i think i was with or would at least know about it a bit more than i do. but this happened like 2 years ago and i haven't talked to them in a year. but if i wasn't even with them that would probably make my anxiety worse because now i can at least assume.