u/Wrong-Interest5977

Hey,

I don’t really use Reddit that much to begin with, I honestly don’t even know how the app works lol. I just receive notifications about manifestation posts, click on them, and read. Sometimes I also do a few searches about manifestation on here.

So, you should know that I discovered manifestation about 6 months ago. And one day in December, I suddenly developed an obsession with a specific person. You should know that I’m an influencer, and he is too. He’s on social media and way more famous than me. We were “friends” on TikTok, but nothing more. He had already sent me a message once saying, “I really like the way you express yourself,” and I simply replied, “thank you 🙏🏻”. That was when he had just followed me. At that moment, I wasn’t interested in him at all, neither physically nor emotionally.

But one day, out of nowhere, I developed this obsession. I genuinely don’t know where it came from. One day he appeared on my TikTok FYP and I literally said to myself: “I want this man.” It was like a vision overnight. So I manifested a message from him. Even though we had been mutuals on social media for months without saying a word to each other. And he did message me. I manifested intensely.

I posted something on my story related to his religion specifically to get a reaction from him, and I visualized that exact moment so much that it happened. The moment where he would reply to a story I would “post.” And you should know that normally he never watched my TikTok stories, so the fact that he watched it that day was such crazy timing.

Anyway, after that, we talked a lot. And I got attached to him. The problem is that our conversations would often slowly die out. Like little by little, there was nothing left to say. Even though we got along so well and were so similar in everything. Sometimes we would laugh together in messages and then suddenly it would just stop. But I don’t know what caused that.

So I kept manifesting him messaging me again. It worked a few times. And twice, I was the one who reached out. And like usual, at first it was amazing, then it flopped and died out again.

Then at some point I developed a terrible obsession, and I couldn’t manifest the way I did in the beginning anymore because of that obsession. At least I think that’s why. I don’t know what happened, but overnight, after he used to like all my TikToks, always the first one to do it by the way, and watch my stories on all my socials before everyone else… It was even him who went looking for my Instagram to add me and talk there. I manifested that too, but more casually. I just told myself, “We’ll end up talking on Instagram anyway and he’ll follow me naturally,” and it happened quickly and on its own.

Honestly, it was incredible.

But now for the past 3 months (I know I’m not supposed to talk about the 3D, but mentally I’m exhausted, and my heart is too, I’m writing this with tears in my eyes), there’s been 0 contact, 0 likes on TikTok except occasionally on my Instagram photos whenever I post one every once in a while.

So I pulled myself together. I started robotic affirmations, scripting 369, and especially focusing on myself. Self-concept. I told myself: “Either way, it’s obvious. I chose this reality and it will happen no matter what. He’s the one I chose. And no matter what happens, we’ll end up together.”

At some moments, I genuinely lived happily as if we were already together, telling myself that things were being arranged behind the scenes. So I ignored the 3D.

Then recently, about a week ago, he liked one of my TikToks. And on Instagram he started viewing my stories first again. Kind of like before. He was the first to like all my new vacation photos. I was happy, but I stayed in the mindset of: “This is only the beginning, things are aligning,” and I kept visualizing the end result.

And then suddenly, he stopped liking every photo again. And the worst part is that he doesn’t even view my stories anymore. It’s so mentally brutal. I kept telling myself: “It’s okay, persist, things are happening behind the curtain.” To reassure myself and keep persisting, I told myself: “Someone who isn’t interested wouldn’t pretend not to watch a story.” But at some point, my heart is tired. I’m scared of destroying myself little by little.

Actually, the first movement happened the moment I almost gave up and said: “I hate you,” “he disgusts me,” “it’s over, I don’t want him anymore.” Because my brain suddenly told me maybe he just wanted to pass time talking to someone, etc. Just bad thoughts basically.

And then he liked my story where there was a picture of me. That was around 3 weeks ago. The first movement after 2–3 months.

I know my self-concept isn’t perfect. I’m trying to improve it day by day, but I feel lost at this point. I feel like manifestation is almost becoming unhealthy for me.

Anyway, sorry this was way too long, but it’s the first time I’ve talked about this and it genuinely matters to me to hear your opinions. Positive or negative, I’ll take anything.

And just know that I don’t focus on the when, how, or why. Since I’m religious, I believe even more in miracles and manifestation, that’s not the issue. The issue is seeing movement appear and disappear every single time.

I constantly manifest detachment, truly detaching from him 100%, forgetting him for a while until things materialize. Because sometimes you have to give time and let God handle things.

{Update: He watched my first story and quickly left without watching the rest. One of my guy friends told me that it probably means he clicked on my Instagram highlight by accident and then realized it was my current story that I had just added to the highlight. Or either way, leaving a story that quickly apparently isn’t really something a guy who completely doesn’t care would do.}

Hey,

I don’t really use Reddit that much to begin with, I honestly don’t even know how the app works lol. I just receive notifications about manifestation posts, click on them, and read. Sometimes I also do a few searches about manifestation on here.

So, you should know that I discovered manifestation about 6 months ago. And one day in December, I suddenly developed an obsession with a specific person. You should know that I’m an influencer, and he is too. He’s on social media and way more famous than me. We were “friends” on TikTok, but nothing more. He had already sent me a message once saying, “I really like the way you express yourself,” and I simply replied, “thank you 🙏🏻”. That was when he had just followed me. At that moment, I wasn’t interested in him at all, neither physically nor emotionally.

But one day, out of nowhere, I developed this obsession. I genuinely don’t know where it came from. One day he appeared on my TikTok FYP and I literally said to myself: “I want this man.” It was like a vision overnight. So I manifested a message from him. Even though we had been mutuals on social media for months without saying a word to each other. And he did message me. I manifested intensely.

I posted something on my story related to his religion specifically to get a reaction from him, and I visualized that exact moment so much that it happened. The moment where he would reply to a story I would “post.” And you should know that normally he never watched my TikTok stories, so the fact that he watched it that day was such crazy timing.

Anyway, after that, we talked a lot. And I got attached to him. The problem is that our conversations would often slowly die out. Like little by little, there was nothing left to say. Even though we got along so well and were so similar in everything. Sometimes we would laugh together in messages and then suddenly it would just stop. But I don’t know what caused that.

So I kept manifesting him messaging me again. It worked a few times. And twice, I was the one who reached out. And like usual, at first it was amazing, then it flopped and died out again.

Then at some point I developed a terrible obsession, and I couldn’t manifest the way I did in the beginning anymore because of that obsession. At least I think that’s why. I don’t know what happened, but overnight, after he used to like all my TikToks, always the first one to do it by the way, and watch my stories on all my socials before everyone else… It was even him who went looking for my Instagram to add me and talk there. I manifested that too, but more casually. I just told myself, “We’ll end up talking on Instagram anyway and he’ll follow me naturally,” and it happened quickly and on its own.

Honestly, it was incredible.

But now for the past 3 months (I know I’m not supposed to talk about the 3D, but mentally I’m exhausted, and my heart is too, I’m writing this with tears in my eyes), there’s been 0 contact, 0 likes on TikTok except occasionally on my Instagram photos whenever I post one every once in a while.

So I pulled myself together. I started robotic affirmations, scripting 369, and especially focusing on myself. Self-concept. I told myself: “Either way, it’s obvious. I chose this reality and it will happen no matter what. He’s the one I chose. And no matter what happens, we’ll end up together.”

At some moments, I genuinely lived happily as if we were already together, telling myself that things were being arranged behind the scenes. So I ignored the 3D.

Then recently, about a week ago, he liked one of my TikToks. And on Instagram he started viewing my stories first again. Kind of like before. He was the first to like all my new vacation photos. I was happy, but I stayed in the mindset of: “This is only the beginning, things are aligning,” and I kept visualizing the end result.

And then suddenly, he stopped liking every photo again. And the worst part is that he doesn’t even view my stories anymore. It’s so mentally brutal. I kept telling myself: “It’s okay, persist, things are happening behind the curtain.” To reassure myself and keep persisting, I told myself: “Someone who isn’t interested wouldn’t pretend not to watch a story.” But at some point, my heart is tired. I’m scared of destroying myself little by little.

Actually, the first movement happened the moment I almost gave up and said: “I hate you,” “he disgusts me,” “it’s over, I don’t want him anymore.” Because my brain suddenly told me maybe he just wanted to pass time talking to someone, etc. Just bad thoughts basically.

And then he liked my story where there was a picture of me. That was around 3 weeks ago. The first movement after 2–3 months.

I know my self-concept isn’t perfect. I’m trying to improve it day by day, but I feel lost at this point. I feel like manifestation is almost becoming unhealthy for me.

Anyway, sorry this was way too long, but it’s the first time I’ve talked about this and it genuinely matters to me to hear your opinions. Positive or negative, I’ll take anything.

And just know that I don’t focus on the when, how, or why. Since I’m religious, I believe even more in miracles and manifestation, that’s not the issue. The issue is seeing movement appear and disappear every single time.

I constantly manifest detachment, truly detaching from him 100%, forgetting him for a while until things materialize. Because sometimes you have to give time and let God handle things.

{Update: He watched my first story and quickly left without watching the rest. One of my guy friends told me that it probably means he clicked on my Instagram highlight by accident and then realized it was my current story that I had just added to the highlight. Or either way, leaving a story that quickly apparently isn’t really something a guy who completely doesn’t care would do.}