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This Tula's pilot survived, but it's state is constantly in touching down. Im assuming cause it's actual body is in the water. (idk why it has collision visible here.)

Sometimes when this happens, it permanently taken the landing spot its on, and other vehicles will \"wait\" for the crashed vehicle to land first lol

I crashed my darkreach into the ibis to temporarily solve that issue

This bug kinda sucks only cause it basically removes an aircraft from play.

I've (26f) been unravelling even further this summer. Mental breakdowns happen on a weekly basis, pretty much always happen on a weekend and with no way to stop them. I recently came home from a trip where I travelled solo. Once I got home I near instantly had a mental breakdown.

I for some reason started picking a fight with my FP telling them to be mad or angry at me. Told me they were disappointed in me acting like this, thinking I had gone back to normal after the trip I did. They then went to bed, said sorry they couldn't help. I only have two online friends and now they were both asleep.

I was unravelling even further, and posted somewhere my full address and an invitation to come and kill me because I was too much of a coward to kill myself. I ended up getting banned for good, because they can't deal with me and they think that the place is too bad for me mentally and are doing it for my own good.

im always told to go get therapy and to only come back once im "better" and more "normal". but currently on a waiting list for approximately half a year now, and likely wont get professional help for even longer.

I've tried self help DBT but I'm too childish and undisciplined to do it on my own.

Please I need help. I want to go back to all my friends. I miss them so much, but i cant go back until im better.

Hear me out on this. Though I haven't used this strategy very often, it's usually worked out pretty well. Load up a Darkreach with 4 ALNDs in the forward bay, then use whatever else you want in the back bay. You can launch the nuclear cruise missiles at any range, even if the indicator is telling you you're too close.

I've had decent success launching a single missile within 2km then pulling hard to the side to avoid getting blasted. Usually due to the cruise missiles having a 5x bigger RCS than the Darkreach, you can really give the enemy a surprise with this. I've genuinely found more success getting ALNDs past defenses in this strategy compared to using 1.5kt nukes.

Today I randomly stumbled into her boyfriend asking for travel advice as he was going to meet with my ex for the first time.

It had been months on months since we broke up, and the whole time I've been going no contact. I must still not be over things... because the amount of anxiety I got made me fold. I've never had my heart beat so fast and so deeply, I couldn't breathe at all.

I'm... not even angry or anything like that. I'm just sad and depressed, but more than anything, afraid.

I'm so afraid that seeing something like that made me almost lose it. I almost texted either of them, telling them I still wasn't over it, I wanted them to feel bad or guilty for hurting me, but I stopped myself.

Of course this happened a few hours ago, so I suppose there is still time for me to mess something up or act out. I'm trying to calm myself at the moment. I'm very sad and I'm sobbing, but not angry...

So this is common advice I (26f) get a lot from some online buddies of mine. On the surface, it makes sense. If I've got a lot of friends I can bounce between and keep myself busy. When it comes to hobbies, I *can* distract myself, but it's not foolproof and game development is a lonely hobby.

In practice, I found this to kinda work out short-term. Having something to look forwards to, be it either hanging out with a new friend or doing a hobby I really want to get at kinda works for sure.

Just... Haven't really found a way to make it work long term yet. I'm wondering if it's such a good idea to do all of these things, or maybe I'm just placing myself into unnecessary stress? What'd you all think?

Was doing a singleplayer run of Escalation coop as BDF. And sometime after the stategic nuke ratio was hit, no airbase could stockpile any nukes. I'm very sure that munitions bunkers were available, since our bases were yet untouched at that point. The enrichment center was showing "-5000" and counting down, but in my experience I don't think it means anything that would prevent it from producing.

I thought also that PALA side was having the same issue, but they managed to set of a 250kt long after this issue started. So it seems like they were producing nukes just fine.

this is a vent/cry for help.

It's been about a year now since I've noticed my BPD getting worse. And now I am here. Worse than ever before. It used to be that I had a mental breakdown just a few times a month last year, but now it has devolved into multiple times a week. And these last weeks have been even worse, I already feel another episode coming on for today and I don't know what I can do to counter it.

I used to be an outgoing and extraverted girl. And now I'm in such a state where the smallest thing will set me off and I end up hurting myself.

I want to isolate myself further cause of how everything hurts me.

I feel as if I am at rock bottom. But seeing others with my disorder... I know the worst is yet to come. I want to be saved, but I can't be. I just hope that people will remember me as the person I was years ago.