u/XW1ndOws93

hey, I was born in the US but moved to the philippines 3 years ago with my dad. he's planning on marrying a filipino and obtaining a dual citizenship for me and my sister, but i honestly don't believe that's possible until i'm an adult, as most of the laws are centered around the child (me in this case) being born to the filipino in question. but both of my birth parents are US citizens and I'm worried my dad is going to try something that won't even work.

I don't even really want to stay here any longer anyways so nevermind getting a citizenship as an adult

Before I start I should probably make it known the Philippines has a thing called CAT in 10th grade, which is like ROTC and we're all required to do it.

I started school a little while ago but I feel like no matter what I try to do I can't contain my emotions. If I'm in math and I don't understand something (even if we're literally just reviewing and he's doing it with us step by step, or it's not even graded), I'll still go into tears. Sometimes I do it for no reason, I just suddenly feel a huge pang of self-loathing and start tearing up.

I try to hide it but I think it's obvious because every teacher asks if im ok. i dont want them to think im not okay because i am fine i just have a lot of emotions and i need to make them stop.

i only started feeling like i need help for overreacting and acting stupid when we started CAT today. We aren't allowed to move in formation, but i'm foreign and still learning the language so Im trying to say my assigned number (we had to shout it) but its really humiliating and i couldnt even do it in english.

i have selective mutism so it's really hard but i started crying on the spot because i had to shout. all i could do was whisper no matter how hard i tried to raise my voice i dont know why im like this. it's really bad because if i dont improve ill get a bad grade and theyll think im trying to disobey.

i just cry a lot i need help to stop it

If anyone knows her, I'm trying to cosplay Logic from Fear and Hunger. For the materials, I've been taking inspiration from Liliya (Outlast Trials) cosplayers, but I have no idea where to start with making it resemble metal while also making it seem like it's hugging my body kind of.

For the wires and shoulder bit, I've considered a piece that covered my breasts and shoulders (like top armor) and just covering it in wires and such, probably using EVA foam since I hear that's reliable.

It's the torso, arms, and mask/face I'm most stuck on. This is my first cosplay like this so I'm a bit stuck.

https://preview.redd.it/b4jd4ktgvbyg1.png?width=178&format=png&auto=webp&s=40ae33ab49144430620d19aebea795042d2c162c