u/Xconsciousness

i’m mostly a 3rd gen and some 2nd gen kpop fan. i was away from kpop for a while and came back recently to catch up on nct and one thing i’ve noticed is this weird thing fans will do when commenting on posts where it’s like they’re “jokingly” bullying the idol?? i don’t remember people being like that at the height of my kpop days from like 2014-2018. idk maybe it’s mostly teenagers doing it so maybe it’s just a gen z thing?? but anyway it just makes me a mildly uncomfortable and i don’t like it.

for example: telling an idol to delete their post, “[insert idol’s age] years old btw”, “anything for a check” and they’re not even doing anything that crazy, stuff like that?

i know that it’s not malicious or whatever but i just think it’s weird. we used to just send our love and support, now it’s this acting like we’re so close with them we can just roast them whenever we want. lowkey parasocial? is this clicking with anyone else or is it just me 💀

hi starseeds. i’m writing this post hoping some of you guys will resonate and can offer words of support, because i feel so completely and utterly alone in my experience and it’s becoming increasingly difficult to bear. i am so beyond exhausted of everyone around me, my own family, trying to convince me that there is something wrong with me and that i’m doing some kind of evil by not accepting a standard for myself that i must exert any and all energy that it takes to work in exchange for money just to keep myself alive. i feel like nobody cares how a job makes me feel as long as i’m “working” and that hurts me deeply. for now i just do delivery apps to make money but i have a hard time coming up with what i’m meant to pay my sister for rent, and while i understand the frustration i also strongly resent being treated as if i’m purposely doing something to her when the truth is that i’m at my wit’s end and worn down by life and everything that has led up to this point. i feel absolutely awful. whenever my family tries to narrow in on how i’m not doing enough for myself, it makes me feel totally worthless. this world feels like it wasn’t meant for me. i know my own inner value and worth but at this point i don’t know what to do with myself anymore. i’m completely and totally emotionally spent. i can’t take one more person trying to convince me that i am in the wrong when i’ve had nothing but the purest intentions towards everyone involved and always just try to mind my own business. i’m having a hard time seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. if anyone does reply, please be kind. i am earnestly reaching for true connection and encouragement right now, if there’s anyone who has it in their heart to say anything. that being said though i hope all of you are doing okay and finding a place in this world somehow. please be well everyone. ❤️

this sub just got recommended to me and i’m both shocked and happy to find that there are still loads of people playing this game!! i played it back in 2016 when i was only a youth in college and had the time of my life. are a lot of you younger and playing for the first time, or are you mostly OG fans that have been following with every update? i never really kept up with the updates after a while but this game has a special place in my heart. so nostalgic every time i revisit it hahah. okay that’s all i had to say~🫰🏻💖