Need advice on crush confession with my severe social anxiety
Hey everyone. I (18F) just graduated high school, and I'm honestly struggling to cope with the feeling of a missed opportunity. I need some outside perspective or similar stories to help me calm down and move on, or maybe someone had experience confessing in such situations and can share it with me. I asked about this in love-related sub, but I feel like my severe social anxiety is a very important detail :(
I’ve had a huge crush on this guy for the past year (we've known each other for two years).
Our graduation party was a few days ago, and there was a moment during the prom when they announced white dance, but I panicked and froze because of my social anxiety (diagnosed). I missed my chance to invite him. As well as I missed every other opportunity to be closer to him this year.
I keep torturing myself with the "what ifs", like, what if I had been brave enough to become close friends with him earlier? Maybe he would have gotten to know me and liked me :/
It’s still not too late to text him, but it's definitely the last chance, and since I am not sure it is (or can become) mutual, I don't know if I should. I am very afraid of rejection, even though we might never meet again unless it's intentional. And I don't know how to not make the message sound sudden and suspicious because I feel like I'd sound strange.
I don't honestly understand how people get in relationship with social anxiety, I feel like I'm gonna stay single forever.
Thank you in advance!