u/YAOI_loverrrrrr

For context I used to have this bf that liked me and I kept staying multiple times "you know I'm a boy right" and he just kept brushing it off and calling me his girlfriend and I hated it but I also really liked him but then soon everyone else started calling me *ex bfs name*'s girlfriend. So I'm not even a person or guy anymore just someone's gf? I guess that's what happens when you date an infamous person, eventually I broke up with him because he didn't accept me and kept saying it was a phase and he didn't even care. Also he kept dead naming me and his discord bio literally said "I'm not gay" and then he proceeded to try to date me...

And I used to have this weirdo stalker in my health science class that went out of his way to hack my school email and find my address. And he said he accepted me for being trans but kept dead naming and using female pronouns just like my ex bf, and he was super weird and gross and kept stalking me and chasing me to pressure me into dating him. I'm not even lying he was literally running and CHASING me around school campus and nobody did anything. But ofc that fat ass couldn't keep up with me, I'm way taller and more athletic. For reference I'm 13 and this guy was like 12 I think but he looked like he was 7. So maybe you can see why he grossed me out so much.

All his past girlfriends only dated him out of fear or they felt pressured to but I would never date anybody I didn't like. Like ever. And he also kept touching me and trying to touch me and when I slapped him or punched him or hit him he only smiled the same way he smiled at me in 4th grade when I pinched him. I used to be friends with this guy btw....

And after some months the weirdo shit he was doing wore off and he was trying to be my friend but I could still sense he liked me. He annoyed me into telling him my crush and then told my crush I liked her after he said he wouldn't tell anyone... Anyway then me and my crush started dating and weirdo stalker dude was jealous or smth because he threatened to rape her and was suspended for the rest of the year. He also had a bad record of looking at or doing nsfw stuff at school and having nude wallpapers on his school Chromebook and threatening people. His dad is also a teacher and that was the final straw so his dad disowned him.

Happy ending...until his suspension was cut off and he was at school for the last 2 days of the school year. I was still mad at him for threatening to rape my gf but I dont really care anymore me and my gf are exes now but still friends.

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I'm trans ftm and my mom thinks it's because of the school I was going to, for reference I go to school in a row that's super racist and homophobic and transphobic and ableist. Basically trump town, I often get called a sissy liberal and get deportation threats at school even tho I'm a legal immigrant and a US citizen.

Anyways my mom thinks everyone at school is making me gay and trans even tho it's not true. I chose to be trans on my own accord and nobody influenced me into making these decisions.

She also thinks I have depression and anxiety because of school the anxiety part is true but I have anxiety everywhere any day any time, I'm pretty sure my reason for depression is because of her hating me and not accepting me, I've had depression because of school before when I didn't have any friends and everyone thought I was weird but that was mostly in elementary school and middle school has been treating me better. Mostly because ppl don't notice me.

If I do online school I'll probably just get worse because I'm literally not allowed to go out ever and the only time I get to go out is for school and I LOVE band I love MPA and I love doing honor bands and solo and ensemble, I love trying out for solos, I love playing clarinet, and if I do online school I can't do any of that. I feel like band is my real family because I'm always accepted there and I love my band director he's the best and he calls me by my preferred name and pronouns. And this school year I was supposed to be clarinet section leader and I could've been in jazz band and I just feel like all that has been taken away from me

My mom also said my therapist thinks I should go to a different school but only because my school district has no budget for anything and the school is crumbling and the curriculum isn't up to standard and because of racism but she never said online school was better

I rely on social interaction with ppl besides my family to live and if everyday I only see teachers through a screen with no band classes I might kill myself, but I probably won't because I have my online bsf and he's the best person ever. But that's basically only talking to one person everyday until my family can move somewhere else with a better school I just can't handle that, I hate doing work online too, it's really boring.

I'm also pretty sure my mom is being petty because I asked her what exactly my therapist said and my mom said she can't tell me the same way my therapist can't tell my mom what I talk to her about, so I said I thought that only applies to the client (me) and she just started yelling at me and telling me to shut up and hippa works for her too.

Atp I'm planning to runaway with my ex gf, even tho she's my ex we're still friends and she said that her grandma would probably let me live with them because she's not evil.

Tw: language

I'm trans ftm and my mom thinks it's because of the school I was going to, for reference I go to school in a row that's super racist and homophobic and transphobic and ableist. Basically trump town, I often get called a sissy liberal and get deportation threats at school even tho I'm a legal immigrant and a US citizen.

Anyways my mom thinks everyone at school is making me gay and trans even tho it's not true. I chose to be trans on my own accord and nobody influenced me into making these decisions.

She also thinks I have depression and anxiety because of school the anxiety part is true but I have anxiety everywhere any day any time, I'm pretty sure my reason for depression is because of her hating me and not accepting me, I've had depression because of school before when I didn't have any friends and everyone thought I was weird but that was mostly in elementary school and middle school has been treating me better. Mostly because ppl don't notice me.

If I do online school I'll probably just get worse because I'm literally not allowed to go out ever and the only time I get to go out is for school and I LOVE band I love MPA and I love doing honor bands and solo and ensemble, I love trying out for solos, I love playing clarinet, and if I do online school I can't do any of that. I feel like band is my real family because I'm always accepted there and I love my band director he's the best and he calls me by my preferred name and pronouns. And this school year I was supposed to be clarinet section leader and I could've been in jazz band and I just feel like all that has been taken away from me

My mom also said my therapist thinks I should go to a different school but only because my school district has no budget for anything and the school is crumbling and the curriculum isn't up to standard and because of racism but she never said online school was better

I rely on social interaction with ppl besides my family to live and if everyday I only see teachers through a screen with no band classes I might kill myself, but I probably won't because I have my online bsf and he's the best person ever. But that's basically only talking to one person everyday until my family can move somewhere else with a better school I just can't handle that, I hate doing work online too, it's really boring.

I'm also pretty sure my mom is being petty because I asked her what exactly my therapist said and my mom said she can't tell me the same way my therapist can't tell my mom what I talk to her about, so I said I thought that only applies to the client (me) and she just started yelling at me and telling me to shut up and hippa works for her too.

Atp I'm planning to runaway with my ex gf, even tho she's my ex we're still friends and she said that her grandma would probably let me live with them because she's not evil.

My sister told my mom that I was ftm one time I tried to kms and I feel like my mom has hated me even more ever since that but while I was in the hospital she said she didn't care what gender I was but I feel like she was just lying, because now any time I present as masc she always says something negative about it and she hates how I bind my chest and tells me that I'm not a man so I should stop trying to be one and almost everyday she talks about how she hates LGBTQ and gay ppl and she said "don't make me hate you too" which really hurt me, and other things she's said that have really hurt me include "I can't wait until you go on vacation with your dad so I can get a break from you" "I wish I never had you at all" "what are you even here for" "I'm useless/worthless and good for nothing" and anytime I make a mistake doing a chore she claims that I do it on purpose as revenge because apparently I'm mad that I have to do chores and then she calls me petty and a load of offensive slurs, and anytime she has to take me to a therapy appointment in the morning she complains and says "I could be getting stuff done right now but instead I have to go to therapy with crazy people" and she's super religious and is always talking about how God made men and women to be partners not so women could fuck other women or men fuck other men. She also said the reason God sank that city was because of ppl like me and idk what city she's talking about and she said I would know if I ever picked up a bible, my older sister isn't supportive either and constantly tells me I'm not a man, and my dad thinks the idea of changing genders is crazy nonsense but I don't talk to him much because he lives in a different country, also anytime I cry my mom says "men don't cry and I thought you were a man what happened" and she's the one that fuckin makes me cry and I've seen my dad cry at his mom's grave so I guess he's a woman now. She's so sexist about male stereotypes it's so annoying because if someone was sexist to her about women she would be so mad. And she's also racist to me because I'm the only mixed person in my family and she constantly calls me white and anytime I get in trouble she says it's because of my dad's white genes, atp I feel like she'll never accept me so I'm literally thinking about running away and living with my gf until I'm 18 or smth, sometimes I wish my mom would die or just disappear from my life. But ever since I tried to kms she doesn't beat me anymore so at least that's better