Guys, neenga solradha vechu dhan, i have to make my decision. Pls guide me to make a better decision..
I (22M) have a female best friend for past 5 years. We both are very good friends. Share a very good bond. We show care for eachother more than normal frnds do. She studied in Blr. I studied in Chennai. She used to come to meet me surprisely, to my college. I used to surprise by going to banglore.
And she got committed with a guy, in her clg .. Even though, she got committed, her care for me, didnt stop.I said, Incase , if it creates dispute in your relationship, I'm okay with limiting our friendship. But her boyfrnd had massive respect on me.
But as days passed on, she brokeup with him.
And suddenly , i started to catch feelings for my bestfrnd.
My plan, was to directly throw a marriage proposal, at the age of 26, and straight up introduce to my parents, and fix the marriage (more like Ohmy Kadavule).
And also, i had this feel, once if i propose her (in the way, i wished), she would definitely come to me.
And i started to manifest daily for her.
But konjam naal la, oru twist vanduchu.. She odane , got into an another relationship. Like, andha college love breakup aana odane , adutha love kulla poitaa.. the reason she said was just silly. (she literally needed love from someone, and quickly monkey branched, jumped from another person)..
And, her new boyfrnd and she, made up an agreement (anyhow , they knew, they wouldnt marry each other). Paravala , but this one year, we can be in a relationship nu they entered into the situationship turned out to a relationship. So, ipo they got broke up (due to lack of effort from the boy side), and patchedup again .. broke up and patched up again..
I thought, if she could wait for more than 3 years (then i can execute my wish as per the plan) .. the real pain is : She cant be a single for so long. Avaluku, yaravudhu oruthar avala love paniye aaganum.
And , this 1 year relationship, has even grabbed her virginity. They even slept together, and she lost her virginity. She was not in control, with her boyfrnd. Now they properly ended their relationship. All it costed was her virginity.
Now, about me : I'm very serious about virginity. Coz, i had no sexual experience in my life. And i expect the same from my partner. I feel like it is a outright betrayal when a partner cant give virginity to their partner.
So, after knowing her sleep over matter, I started to see her as a sinner. Now, its feeling like, i have lost the respect on her.
(After her new relationship, she gradually started to avoid all her frnds, including me)
At that tym , i was forcing her to meet the old vibe.
Now after knowing , she lost her virginity, i cant look her the same way. And also, its very hard for me to avoid her.
And, also, i have imagined my future life with her.
So, now i have to take decision on that : Whether to choose the love of my life or a new virgin partner..
(Kindly give me advice) Do virginity really matters ? Or am i very regressive , in this topic ?