u/Yo-hello1013

(Giving age range for safety) I'm 13-18, and I am an AFAB enby person.

I have known that I wasn't a woman since I started puberty (specific, I know) which was around age nine. Since then I have always experimented with my gender and who I might really be.

Recently, I have been thinking about transitioning to some extent. I have wanted to start testosterone, and have been considering top surgery, I always considered bottom surgery, but I looked at what they had to do, and I thought that it wasn't worth it (I'm also really scared of invasive surgeries like that). But recently, I've been imagining what it would be like if I was born male.

>!I imagine what it must feel like to masturbate!<, and what it must be like to not have to cut my boobs off. I imagine what it might be like to be able to dress feminine and not be judged (as someone who transitioned just to dress "like a woman"). I think of this, and that, and so many other things, and I wish that I was born a male.

I still feel disconnected from both femininity and masculinity, so this "possibly a man" thing is kind of surprising me.

And, uh, how do I tell my parents that I want to start t and what are the requirements to do so? They are supportive, and have been since I came out, but I don't know how to ask them.

Thanks!!