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I’m still crying and it’s the middle of class. My knees and hands feel numb, and I’m getting this sick shivery feeling all throughout my body and I don’t know why. I just want a hug and to feel better because I am so afraid. I’m so scared of graduating because it’s like the last chapter of being a kid before it’s all over. I wish I could be a little kid again and start over.

Yes my mattress is on the floor, it more comfortable that way.

Maybe if I’m quiet and never sing again.. they’ll be my friends forever

I have to be hot and suffering, even in death; I worry about what will become of my body

Lol.

Nothing much to say about this, my scars are itching and my brain worms are telling me to open them again. Instead of doing that, I drew them as eyes, because eyes open and close without pain

Anyway I'm exhausted, so I'll go to sleep

Lost a kitty last night </3 I’ll miss him. such bizarre timing. he’s not the one featured in the comic.

First of all tysm for the love on my last post !!!

sorry She's in a lame pose it's cuz she's a sprite for my game that I will finish...ummmmmmmmmmm....one day

She's in a trauma bond with her abuser Who is also her doctor........... A very complicated situation. she's really stupid and I love her ok bye

he’s so kind and funny and understanding and I barely talk to him i noticed small things like his Naruto wallpaper and his Pokemon croc charms. I didn’t even like him at first but I found myself thinking about him more and more and the moment I realized I liked him I was crushed because he’d never like a loser like me then I got even more sad because no one I ever and will ever like will like someone as broken as me back. I’m not outgoing I’m too shy and I’m his inferior because he’s a supervisor but he’s only one year older I just hope this crush goes away. Oc sketch I did months ago

update: I requested to follow him on ig as a tiny move but he hasn’t accepted it all day even tho our other coworkers follow him I’m such a loser

wow so moe

btw what should I name this little cat dude I havent come up with one yet

I haven’t painted anything in about 3 years. It felt nice

I wish i could make them feel how it feels to suffocate inside out everyday multiple times no escape no love no distraction no peace no nothing, only suffer and suffer and loop. No escape. No one to save me. No feelings, or else it hurts again. It only hurts. I know this world is worth living, and to experience. But if i can't get to feel it, to love it, to see it, what gives? What changes if im trapped here again, with disgusting people and their inconsiderance, and their unending ego, and their suffocating cigarettes, machines, odors, anything. What intention does the knowledge of a beautiful, QUIET world carry other than to mock me for getting trapped afar? I don't want to live if that's the rest of my life. I dont want to hear their PATHETIC god's name ever again. I want to hurt them. I want to silence them. I HATE THEM. And thats all i am. Hate and suffocate and hope and never be happy. Never spend a day away from them. Never have privacy to drown myself in tears. Never have the luxury of being left alone. Never leave this land. Die here. Feed it. I hope i am made of poison, though, because i began to think i will never have the chance to be something better, someone away from here, someone who had healed, someoine who isn't their "witch" to burn all day everyday every moment WHY SHOULD I LOVE THEM?? And to think, military expects me to kill someone else for them.. To be their dog. To defend THEIR land. This land isn't mine. This flag isnt mine. These people aren't mine. They belong to hell. And i know i don't. Because if i didn't, i would be their's again. Not again. If it takes a parasite's death to make a bird fly free, THE SUN SHALL FALL ON THEM, AND BURN LIKE THE TORCHES THEY CARRY SO CLOSE.