u/z0mb1e_molls

Im starting back in about a week, im officially going into my senior cycle. Its still a good bit away, but im already feeling the effects of going back. Evan thinking about it makes me feel physically sick. Not to mention because im going into senior cycle, im in a new class group and new teachers. I got into the same class as my 'best friend', tho we only hung out 1 this summer with limited talking. My other friend that is actually trying to be my best friend isn't in my new class and fir half the summer she has been in the other side of the country. I know that school is gonna cause me to go into a bad spot again, if not at the start,it will eventually.

Im going to counciling for the first time in a few weeks, 4 days before I go back to school. I struggle with anxiety and im struggle not to think about the things that can go wrong in the session. I struggle with trama, nssi, suicidal thoughts,depression, intense thoughts, aswell as mutch more.

At one side im kinda happy that im getting help, but at the same time Im terrified. I have tried getting better, but it never lasts, and im scared that when I stop, and dont have the option or freedom for sh or my other thoughts, when I do eventually break again, its going to extremely worse, I I coukd seriously hurt myself and the people around me.