u/Yourmotherswhore_

I don’t have the name, I think it was odd something but, he genuinely scared me. He wanted an exchange of services instead of cash which is fine, it’s not something I had ever done but it was alright. But then eventually be pushed my boundaries, and it got scary quickly. Toxically obsessive in a non kinky way. To all Dommes out there, please please know your worth. Protect yourself. It was silly of me to accept in the first place I know, it seemed like an interesting idea at the time. No matter what, be confident, protect yourselves, and a wise person told me that, not all money is good money, not all services are good services. Be safe queens 🩷

I just had a Multi send session with my sub while he was caged (totally recommend 😍😫), and it was the hottest thing,drained him and everything, I LOVE this kink haha,but it did get me thinking, dommes either new or experienced please do not be afraid to break the immersion to check in on your sub! Some subs can deal with the fact that you’ve put them into debt etc, but some although they like the fantasy, can be scared! I’ve seen some dommes say their sub has gone into debt and they’re struggling to even eat!! That seems unhealthy to me. I’d love to know what you guys think, but as I said always check in!!

Honestly I’m quite happy with it even if it’s only two digits but I can’t help but feel disheartened a little, I’ve been back for about two days and not gotten subs who are looking for true long term dynamics, or I’ve been getting scams or ghosted after asking AV or tributes 😫I know it’s not a long time and tbh getting two digits in two days is still impressive in my eyes at least, how do you guys not feel disheartened sometimes?

Any Dommes who left this life for a little and came back, how hard is it to get back into? Honestly I’m a little nervous, I have 2 years experience, but it’s been months since I’ve actively engaged with it all, any tips? :)

As well as Anxiety I suffer from emetophobia (they aren’t related, which may not make sense but they aren’t for me), and yesterday I had a massive panic attack, I was triggered, and now today all I have done is be on edge, I’ve been panicking, I had a four hour long nap, I’ve not left the house, and I still felt anxious, I essentially passed out from pure anxiety because I was so exhausted. I’m also a woman, so of course my period showed up, and so now not only am I just anxious in general with basically everything, I’m also checking my body the whole time.

Now I’m sat here almost 10pm UK time, and I want to cry out of pure Anger. Does anyone else just sit there angry at their mind and body? Like I am so frustrated and mad and before this, I was doing quite well with my anxiety, now I feel like Im back to square one shaking in the dark of my room not going outside.

Can anyone if you can, tell me Anxiety or Emetophobia recovery success stories? I just want to feel like this will be over soon..

TLDR: Anxiety/Emetophobia got triggered and feel like Im back to Square one with anxiety.