Struggling
Anybody the non-birthing mother and really struggling to just exist after their child comes along? I have never felt worse than I do right now, the anxiety, intrusive thoughts and depression are very real. My child is now over 1 and I just expected it to get better but it has got worse. I am also the working parent and my partner wants me to get a second job to allow her to stay home. I am barely keeping myself afloat as it is, days are hard, waking up is hard, going to work is hard. All things I used to love are hard, I don’t know how I’ve got here but I hate it. I never expected parenthood to be like this. I do things purely for my child but I cannot put anything else on my plate or I’m afraid of the consequences for my already horrible mental health. If I did what my brain wants me to do at the moment I’d be staying in bed all day and sleeping but I can’t do that with a child so I continue to push no matter how I feel. I have mentioned some of my feelings to my partner but I don’t want to stress them out so have kept 90% of them to myself. I just don’t know how to cope anymore.