u/ZeeroYuy

Hewo!

Right, as the title more or less states, what are some songs (if any) that you've been playing internally to help you cope with the rigours of daily "Joeing"? I've been getting down and dirty with a lot of blackgaze the past year or so haha. The embedded song in particular just has a.... healing effect on me? Yeah. I always feel good and refreshed afterwards. I have a couple more that I'll link too, but I would love to hear what you guys have, if you're keen on sharing. Thanks and take care, yeah?

https://youtu.be/puy5sAcL0Zs?is=iiy75HM4RxjYiVaM

https://youtu.be/8DiWzvE52ZY?is=d1lUXABHczSTmHrl

Pretty much what the title says. It's not that no one is kind to you or you're in any bad standing with anyone (that you're aware of), it's just that... Idk, dawg, having to share a space with a large amount of other humans for a 3rd of your day makes it hard to not feel lonely when everyone seemingly gets along well, yet when it comes to interacting with you it almost seems like it's a chore for them/you're just being tolerated. I know it's not my job to make friends, but unfortunately we are social creatures by design and at some point it does become a shitty feeling kinda sorta being excluded, even for the more reserved/independent people in this job.

PS,

I don't struggle with this outside of the work place, just while dealing with it in real time.

Henlo!

Do any of you get caugh in the trap of romanticizing new people that you meet, dreaming up "possible" scenarios, and being excited to see them, but when you actually interact with said person(s) enough times you come away disappointed and dejected because they more often than not turn out to be just "like everyone else"?

I know it's incredibly unfair and unreasonable to expect anyone to live up to any expectations you have for them, but I guess being so lonely and seeing how much indifference/apathy there is amongst most humans in the current world makes it that much more difficult to settle for any sort of friendship/relationship because you want more for yourself and others than that. I recognize that humans are messy and very nuanced beings, but I also don't want to betray myself just for the sake of trying to belong.

I love the idea of community/camaraderie, but it's just hard to connect with most others because everyone just seems so....distant. Unreachable. It's like sticking your hand out at the star in the night sky, thinking you have it, but then you realize that it's so very far way. So close, yet so far. Sorry for the word vomit!