u/ZookeepergameSea3596

Hello there! I've created this account to express my anger and pain. I'm a femme, living with my lesbian partner for more than a year now. This is the first time that I've entered a relationship with a lesbian, please don't get me wrong on this. All of my exes are also femme or soft masc. Everything was new to me, given our age gap of 10 years as well. I'm 28 btw. - So eto na nga, first time ko maranasan sa kanya lahat, yung sigawan kapag nag-aaway to the point na nagkakasiraan na ng gamit and sakitan physically. One of my non-nego before was bounce na ako kapag dumampi sa akin yung kamay niya, but look at me now - still suffering with the same BS. Why? Mahal ko eh. Until today, meron kasi siyang ugali na magsasabi lang kapag tomorrow na yung lakad, like how would you feel if sayo gagawin yun? 24/7 tayo magkasama sa bahay and never mo naisip magsabi sa akin? Sasabihin mo lang kapag nakapagdecide kana? Idagdag mo pa yung fact na yung nagyaya sayo is someone na pinagseselosan ko, and hindi ako comfy na kasama mo. Umabot na naman kami sa sakitan, hinampas niya ako sa ulo twice, and it hurts until now. Hindi ko na alam yung gagawin ko. Plus na natin yung factor na unemployed ako now kaya di ako makalaya. - Gusto ko lang ilabas lahat to, kasi bukod sa nasasaktan ako until now physically, sobrang durog na rin ako emotionally and mentally. Hindi na detailed yung kwento ko, I know madaming tanong. But - ask niyo na lang din ako.

Hello there! I've created this account to express my anger and pain. I'm a femme, living with my lesbian partner for more than a year now. This is the first time that I've entered a relationship with a lesbian, please don't get me wrong on this. All of my exes are also femme or soft masc. Everything was new to me, given our age gap of 10 years as well. I'm 28 btw. - So eto na nga, first time ko maranasan sa kanya lahat, yung sigawan kapag nag-aaway to the point na nagkakasiraan na ng gamit and sakitan physically. One of my non-nego before was bounce na ako kapag dumampi sa akin yung kamay niya, but look at me now - still suffering with the same BS. Why? Mahal ko eh. Until today, meron kasi siyang ugali na magsasabi lang kapag tomorrow na yung lakad, like how would you feel if sayo gagawin yun? 24/7 tayo magkasama sa bahay and never mo naisip magsabi sa akin? Sasabihin mo lang kapag nakapagdecide kana? Idagdag mo pa yung fact na yung nagyaya sayo is someone na pinagseselosan ko, and hindi ako comfy na kasama mo. Umabot na naman kami sa sakitan, hinampas niya ako sa ulo twice, and it hurts until now. Hindi ko na alam yung gagawin ko. Plus na natin yung factor na unemployed ako now kaya di ako makalaya. - Gusto ko lang ilabas lahat to, kasi bukod sa nasasaktan ako until now physically, sobrang durog na rin ako emotionally and mentally. Hindi na detailed yung kwento ko, I know madaming tanong. But - ask niyo na lang din ako.