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i feel like my last two posts have been about me struggling a lost with planning, hesitance for “all-in” and struggles with obsessive tracking. but i wanted to try something different and post some progress and areas of positivity the past few days.

i still haven’t fully committed to the all in approach, but i have increased my intake and cut tracking! some things i’ve noticed:

- my energy is a lot more consistent and i feel like actually talking to people and maintaining conversations!
- my brain fog has gone down and i can focus on homework easier
- i’ve been able to live in the moment more often then looking ahead too much!

though i still have many steps to go, i want to still appreciate the process i made so far.

TW: mention of tracking, macros,etc.

hello!
i’ve posted a few times in the past regarding my struggle with tracking foods, especially protein and calories. i am tired of having to plan out each day but then without planning my meals i experience a lot more panic and decision fatigue at meal time. this all takes up so much head space that i need for other things in my life. i just want to move on and forward but have no idea how to stop this behavior.
does anyone have advice, shared experiences or strategies? thank you so much <3

I’ve noticed that I have a day or two that go really well towards eating and recovery. Then, i start to doubt myself and my disorder, feel guilt or other excuses and fall back into restrictive or compulsive behaviors. The moment this hard day occurs, it becomes 100x harder to do better the next day. For some reason, I feel this need to have each day look like the day before. So if I ate more/less the day before, my habit is to emulate that.
I don’t know how to break this cycle because I am aware of it, but i still come back to it again and again. any advice or suggestions?

Hello!
Right now i’m really struggling with dealing with my appetite and the extremely different states it swings in through matters of minutes. Some days I really struggle to reach my meals because I just have no appetite or appeal to them whereas others I definitely feel very hungry. It can be an instant switch and really strange.
Does anyone relate? I know extreme hunger exists but does anyone only experience it for like very short intervals of time?

Hello!
Does anyone have tips or suggestions on what to do when your struggling with deciding what to eat for a meal/snack? I struggle with perfectionism and feel a high pressure to have the “right” choice for a meal. This makes it even harder when I don’t have any idea what I’m in the mood for or whatever. Thank you!

TW: disorder behaviors/tracking

Hope everyone is doing well.
I always hear the advice to just quit disordered behaviors “cold turkey”, but i was wondering if anyone has any other approaches or advice beyond that?
In context, I’ve tracked food for so long and abruptly stopping will send me into a complete spiral. I want to work towards quitting it entirely but want to be realistic to how I will react and prevent relapse.
Thank you!

one thing i’ve been finding really nourishing and comforting is seeking old hobbies of mine that i enjoyed when i was younger/way before my ed. not only does it fill time and acts as a good distraction, but it also fills me with a sense of positive nostalgia and encouragement to look back on more innocent times. some people suggest eating childhood foods, but i find this is a good non-food related activity that can still aid in recovery (obviously childhood foods are also helpful but it’s nice to turn the scope to beyond eating).
in my case, i got into playing pokémon sword and relearning pokémon (as it was one of my first hyper fixations years ago. ) it fills time well especially in the summer where i have much more free time to spare. normally, with my ed, i would find dedicating time to the game to be a waste of energy (and i lacked enough energy to maintain hobbies anyways) so this is a step in the right direction.

it’s silly but pokémon is sigh of some progress in my journey.