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I'm 19F.

I'm from a tier3 city with obviously not so cool parents, I never demanded anything from them and never tried things like grooming or anything because my main focus was on studying and enjoying my childhood. This is what they enforced as well. Now that I have moved out for college and started some grooming and basic presentable styling like making sure whatever I'm wearing suits my body type, wearing lip balms, basic skincare and all.

My mother used to be cool but now she has become just like my dad. Regressive. My dad will roam around wearing nothing but a small piece of towel around his waist and he absolutely hates the way I dress. C'mon I don't even wear sleeveless stuff because I'm insecure of my arms, I just wear basic fitted stuff on the top and baggy jeans, mostly kurtis or short Kurtis but they have a problem that I don't wear dupatta...i don't even tuck in my shirts like that's very decent, normal people won't even have a problem with it but they do. They want me to wear a dupatta with everything I wear like even tshirt and pants (I hate this thing it just looks so weird and ruins the outfit). I have never tried a lot of stuff because it makes me insecure, i never learnt how to buy clothes, my mom always brought them for me and I liked her fashion sense. But now she buys absolutely diabolical stuff which doesn't suit my body and I have to wear them and that's when I understood that I have been nerfed.

When I see absolutely confident women from tier1 cities wearing flawless makeup, wearing everything they want like I'm not talking about urfi Javed level outfits, just basic tank tops, sleeveless kurtis and bell bottom pants, open hair and all. I can never do this in front of my dad. He even hates lipstick and all, my mom applies it anyways but he hates it. My heart aches when I see women from tier1 cities, grown up in a perfect environment, going on trips with their families (dad involved and no discomfort, they are enjoying and being themselves in the trip)...they studied in a good school where they taught proper english, programming and entrepreneurship.. the difference becomes soo clear and i sometimes fear crossing those boundaries, like I'm still dependent on my parents and I can't do anything till I'm independent..

I don't even have a good relationship with my dad, i haven't even sat beside him my entire life and he just acts like a total stranger. So when I see other women with loving dads, those who laugh and share stuff with them, those who can sit beside them, hug them and everything. I just feel so sad..whenever we have a conversation it is all about my career and how he wants me to appear for upsc and state psc because it is an ideal thing for a woman. And dismisses my desire to pursue higher studies in my field. I know they are only educating me because they think I'm a bright student and they'll marry me off as soon as I complete my studies.

19F, planning a solo visit to prayagraj. Suggest some good places to visit and some nice street food to try.