u/abcdemji

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losing my spark again

i fumbled an academic project and now i have no motivation to do anything. i'm so depressed, i have no energy at all. even typing this out is tiring me out. i want to cry and i want to scream but i can't. i just feel like nothing at all.

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u/abcdemji — 6 days ago

can sleep go back to normal without any other medication/supplement?

hi all. i've been on quetiapine (200mg) for a few months. i've been tapering off to quit it entirely and i am now in 50mg.

i used to not be able to sleep with 100mg, but 50mg is still enough to make me sleep now. however, i've only been sleeping 5-7 hours (mostly 5-6) and i feel really tired. i used to need 10+ hours of sleep on 200mg, but now i don't get enough.

i can't sleep unless i take the 50mg. can my sleep go back to normal eventually without relying on other meds/supplements like melatonin?

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u/abcdemji — 7 days ago

i'm currently on my period. i've never missed any month, but have been delayed every now and then because of medications i take. the past 2-3 days, i've been feeling much more emotional than usual. yesterday, i was experiencing back pain and some cramps and i was so emotional that i thought i was having my period. turns out, that pain was nothing compared to what i'm experiencing today.

this pain has always been present in my periods, and it's enough to make me cry and make me feel like i'm going to faint. it hurts my abdomen, my back, and it hurts so much even if i lay down. warm compress doesn't help. it doesn't stop until i take pain killers. i took a paracetamol earlier because i ran out of my usual, but it's not helping at all.

i'm currently sitting in class, typing this out as i try my hardest not to cry from this pain. i can't focus at all.

i've been reading stuff online for when period pain is not normal anymore, but i see resources saying it has to be like 2-3 days of pain. but for me, it's usually just 1 day of more manageable pain (but still enough to make me feel very uncomfortable) and 1 day of pain i can't manage. and mine fades out after taking mefenamic.

i'm also always experiencing acne flareups every month, and i get really depressed 1-2 days before my period.

is this enough to seek help from an OBGYN? maybe i'm just overreacting and this is a common experience

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u/abcdemji — 23 days ago

i was taking 200mg since november last year. was misdiagnosed as bipolar ii, so now i'm tapering off. i'm on 100mg.

since i've been taking it, i've been having really vivid dreams. sometimes it's an unusual scenario, sometimes i see in my dream the exact same view i have when i wake up. the common thing is i'm aware i'm sleeping, and i'm aware that i need to wake up. it's a repeating cycle for me that i try to move my limbs as hard as possible, and when i do, i wake up to that same dream, stuck in the same position. basically, it's like i'm in a cycle where i imagine moving my hands.

earlier, it happened again. i was stuck in like 7-8 cycles of me trying to move my limbs, moving it, opening my eyes to see i'm still paralyzed.

it's bothering me so much. i almost cried earlier at the thought that i would be stuck in that dream forever, because my sleep paralysis never lasted that long. i would usually wake up within 5 cycles at most.

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u/abcdemji — 26 days ago