dismissed previous diagnosis, reconsidering based on current experiences
hello everyone, apologies for the wall of text
i was diagnosed last year with bipolar 2, but after tlaking with my family and mental health professionals, we concluded that it wasn't an accurate diagnosis.
now, a year later, i am seeing a new therapist who thinks i may be experiencing symptoms of hypomania. I am very confused because in some ways I fit the symtoms but in other ways I do not. And I can think of specific cases which match the description of it but dont feel like a consistent pattern across similar episodes.
i strongly believe i have autism (a diagnosis I am working to get) since it matches my symtoms very closely and I have had several professionals highly recommend I get tested. right now, i am on a very light dose of an antidepressant and while it has helped me with my anxiety it has done very little to improve my depressed mood in general. im currently taking time off from school because my mental health challenges made it very difficult for me to get anything done.
after almsot 5 months were i was stayed in bed most days, i finally recently was able to start doing work again, reading papers, and working on my school research stuff. Yesterday, I got so many things done: i washed my hair, walked my dogs, walked to the store, bought groceries, read probably 50+ pages of my schoolwork, tutored my bf for his spanish class, made dinner, played slay the spire with my bf, and finished my day with a meltdown that gave me a headache so bad i fell asleep. i didnt feel bad throughout the day but i didnt feel overly good. i felt alright which is above average for me. maybe a little happy to get sometjing done after many months of rotting. then i woke up today in a great mood.
it's hard to tell if this is just my extreme burnout fading, or if it's a sign the bipolar 2 diagnosis was accurate. i dont think i am generally irritable but i can think of some days where i felt inexplicably irritable. and sometimes i do have bursts of energy. but idk. i just dk.