u/achlysvamp

I finished my third run, this time as a tremere, and it has been genuinely the worst so far. I don't know if I'm alone in this one, but this clan is so weak, I had a really good build for physical/combat and even with that she was SO FUCKING WEAK, everything killed or made me lose a lot of health (at my run as a malkavian with slightly worse build for combat I was practically a God, so I think this is a clan thing).

The only op thing about her was Thaumaturgy, which makes me waste A LOT of blood and then waste all my money buying stupid blood bags for combat 😭😭😭 It's a cool discipline, but mid game becomes boring just spamming blood boild.

For these reasons, and in order to finish the game with this clan and not abandon it, I ironically did the most tremere thing one can do: cheating. I didn't need to cheat even in my fist run which was extremely chaotic (I didn't know anything, I was a Toreador just vibing without knowing what exp was until mid game, and then I used everything in social, just seducing my way into the end game and then just suffering in the two final battles because I allied myself with the anarchists at the end in the taxi without realizing it lol) but I needed to do it in this one even with a good character build, which I don't understand. I was so frustrated and bored that I gave my tremere the worst ending (obv ally with kuei-jin) which also hated because is a horrible ending that I would never choose if not for matching the vibe of this terrible run purposes.

Before this run I did my second with a malkavian and it was just perfect, the disciplines, the character, the history behind the clan, the dialogue, everything, so maybe going from my malkavian run to my tremere run has been even worst because of the contrast

I'm the only one that has this experience with playing tremere? Which one is your favourite clan to play with?

Edit: This comment section confirmed to me that I have a really unpopular opinion and a completely different vision of what is easy

I'm 25, and I have been day dreaming literally all my life. For me, it's a combination of things that causes this "disorder" , I have a tendency to it, I have suffered childhood trauma, and I never felt truly human. But the worst of all the motives, ironically, is how fucking boring life is, and therefore how pathetic I find human life.

All my day dreaming has always been about the supernatural, existences that could only be explained as being from another dimension, sometimes things that are not even remotely tangible or so dreamlike that they may not even be able to be explained. The only """normal""" one I had is when I was 6 and fantasised about being the only human in the whole world.

And because of that I can't go "out of my mind" I tried numerous times, but everything feels extremely pathetic, I have the same feelings about human existence in general as people have for "losers". Someone tells me is married, has children and a confortable life? Boring. I meet someone that works saving lives? Boring. People talk about a miserable person they know who ended in the streets? Boring. A documentary about people who has being raised in cults and is "interesting" because of that upbringing? Boring. With everything, except people who "become" one with a cause and die for it, because I see it as "becoming more than a simple human" or "being part of something bigger than yourself" but it doesn't excite me to much either because at the end of the day you still a human no matter what. So it feels impossible to have a purpose in life.

For some weird reason, people like me, I "make friends" too easy for someone like me, but that friendships never feel real to me so they are always "one sided" and end up hurting people. The older I become, the more I struggle with suicide ideation and truly feel like I don't belong in this world. Sometimes I hope to find my place in this world, but that feels even more fantasy like than any of my most crazy scenarios that I use to fill the void of being alive.