u/acrylamide-is-tasty

not always but in some cases i think society has a fetish for watching people limp along miserably for their entire lives

rn my working hypothesis is they do it not because they expect any results, but because it feels good to defy the fear that they've had in their heart for decades

i'm often told it's a childish view, but i don't want to be childish so i want to know why it's wrong

like no hate to women but seeing any portrayal of women is so fucking depressing sometimes and sometimes i just want to forget that humans exist and to forget that i'm stuck in this disgusting body but i can't browse shit without seeing the anubis mascot everywhere

i'm not even trans i'm just a fetishist invading minority spaces because that's what gross fetishists love to do

now even my dreams have become disgusting and perverted

i don't feel like i'm in control of my thoughts at all

there isn't even anything to repress or resist, just a brain making itself feel pain for no reason with nothing to do and no way to stop it

why are we cursed with sexual thoughts we cannot control

i was happier when i was a child

i see lots of envy and stress inducing posts every day

i love that i can press a single button to hide them and create my own perfect little bubble

not just envy about gender, but about anything

draft wording: "The artist has drawn a girl and called it a boy. Boys cannot look like this in real life."

already seeing it on some subreddits. fuck age verification laws, nobody wants to show internet companies their face just to use social media.

anyway thanks to everyone for responding to my stupid posts and also for being very relatable.

• men trying to look masculine - not disgusting
• women trying to look masculine - not disgusting
• women trying to look feminine - not disgusting
• men trying to look feminine - extremely disgusting

I know it's not just me who thinks this way! Most people seem to feel this way to some degree. But why? What is it that makes only one corner of this square so viscerally repulsive?

(No hate to the aforementioned men.)

My hair's a rat's nest due to perpetual neglect.

Shaving it all off is good because it's zero maintenance but it's one of those things that makes you feel a little dead inside.

Even if there's no way they're going to pass. It's so weird.

Like telling people to make their life harder for themselves (risk losing all their relatives, etc.) to feel "mentally better" in some vague way sounds evil to me.