I offend people just by opening my mouth
don’t know if it is an adhd/neurodivergent thing but I really annoy and hurt other people’s feelings with how clueless I guess I am socially. it makes me feel bad because I mess up so badly that I get blocked. I know I deserve it and it’s within their right, but it sucks. and it hurts when I’m just trying to get to know someone, but the ways I have of doing that are probably bad and I’m probably bad at communicating with others. I don’t really know what else to do. I wish I could just be myself. I know I can of course with the right people.
But as I’ve grown over the years and stepped into myself more, and even very very recently because I’ve been doing a lot of inner work on myself, I lose more and more people. I’ve even lost nearly my entire family. I don’t have close friends. I struggle so much with connecting and having conversation. like this one woman on here I was messaging. I was asking her questions but she wasn’t and I felt she was uninterested. Anyway I fucked that up too and she blocked me. I’m not trying to play victim or whatever. I’m no victim. It is what it is, but yeah it hurts. It sucks
the more I step into myself and feel comfortable within myself the more people I lose and the harder it is to have close friends. if I’m being myself and doing inner work, being the best I can, why are people shedding away from me rather than wanting to get closer? people seem to enjoy me from a distance but no one seems to wanna spend time with me or get to know me. maybe I am not putting in enough effort. I don’t know, I’m clueless past this