u/aerheaded

I tried my best not to fall for you. I truly did. Stared at my feet instead of into your amber irises. Waited hours to text you back. Held my tongue whenever I wanted to tell you how much you mean to me. I’m still holding my tongue, but you don’t make this easy. 
I don’t know how we ended up where we are. How you got so close to me despite my efforts. You were the first to ever come into my home. Get the password to my phone. All because.. you make me feel safer than anyone else ever has. Putting me in front of you at concerts when I can’t see. Standing close to me when I’m anxious without me saying a word. Lol I’m crying now. I’ll blame the Smirnoff. 
I’ve written so many songs about you, I want to show you sometimes. I know you’d like them. I can’t though, and… you know why. I’m so afraid of how strongly I feel for you yet when you’re near, it feels like everything will be okay. I’m so fucking lucky. I hope I find the courage to tell you I love you one day.