u/aeropylon

hi, I'm a 24F and I'm about a month or so deep on 50mg sertraline. I'm also on 150mg of wellbutrin, which is a long story in and of its own - that shit feels like I'm taking a sugar pill and nothing more. i also take trazadone for sleep as needed.

it's been about 5 weeks since I started taking sertraline, and so far it's quite bad. not as bad as the SNRI's I have tried, but even those close to me in my life have noticed a difference.

I'm absolutely exhausted and unmotivated all the time, and hungry as all fuck (I have an eating disorder.) I also have been getting these weird intense chills, which I think may have been brain zaps? since they occurred when I missed a dose. I've been so fucking nauseous and irritated. i don't care about anything - unless of course I'm having a panic attack, which has been happening more frequently and very intensely. i also have weird dreams, but that doesn't bother me too much. i mostly hate the fatigue and brain fog.

now, I'm not sure if this is related, but I also recently have been feeling an intense sense of impending doom. i feel like I'm going to die soon or something? i freaked out and bought a carbon monoxide detector for my apartment. (i live alone in a studio, and the building doesn't use gas at all) I struggle a lot with weird impulses like that, like I convince myself of something and absolutely have to do something to "fix" it. zoloft has not helped that at all.

I was hesitant to try an SSRI again, but I've been feeling so hopeless. i hate this. i keep waiting for it to "start working" and I can't help but feel discouraged when I read about other people's success stories.

same goes for wellbutrin, I feel like I know so many people who swear by it but it doesn't do anything to me anymore.

i know I should be more patient. I've tried buspirone, lexapro, cymbalta, effexor, abilify, prozac.... those are just what I can think of off the top of my head.

and I truly feel I'm doing all that I can! i try to eat healthy and stay hydrated and active. i have two jobs and support myself completely, I have a good few close friends. I've been seeing the same therapist for about 6 years now, and I'm a few months into EMDR therapy for complex trauma.

this may come off as word vomit, I apologize. thank you from the bottom of my heart to anyone who gives this the time of day :) I just wanted to share and hear what suggestions anyone may have, or if any of you relate to my experiences. thank you again.