u/afroginatoyota

It’s a huge issue of mine that I try to befriend my opponents or maybe mid match I’ll do some honor thing where I won’t attack while they adjust they’re singlets I’ll check on them after head collisions things like that things that other people don’t care about I feel so soft I put in the work and i will put my own body through anything thrown at me and just suck it up but for other people I just have to much empathy but I don’t want to remove my empathy I love people and life and all that I’m a positive guy and I’d hate to see that go any tips appreciated

It feels like I’m 2 different people no matter what the only time I work hard is when I’m angry or when it’s wrestling season and I’m never angry I love everything but during wrestling I’ll always be one of the hardest working people in the room it’s all I have I’m not talented at much else and even then I’m not to good at that my dream is to be a professional fighter but after the season I lose it I can’t get out of bed I can’t do anything I just watch tv and rot away but once there was a time I would do anything extra and I’d always go for the best I could do I know I’m better but the moment I want to work some jerk in my brain tells me to do it later later never comes I feel like 2 different people any tips?

My only real accolades at my school are being captain of the wrestling team I use to have high grades and was at one point doing college prep classes junior year I really let go because I thought I didn’t want to go to college but after thinking about it I do is there still time to lock in?