I Need Help Escaping This Cycle of Overthinking and Self-Hatred
I struggle to let things go. Even the smallest words or situations stay in my mind, and I replay them constantly—whether I'm with my family, walking, or trying to sleep. My thoughts never seem to stop, leaving me mentally exhausted and disconnected from the present.
I believe this began after I was called "stupid" and "slow to understand." Those words became deeply rooted in my mind, making me question everything I say and do. Over time, I started believing that I was unintelligent and worthless. I became my own harshest critic, constantly comparing myself to others and feeling that everyone is better than me.
This has left me feeling completely lost, as if I'm trapped in a maze with no way out. The emotional pain is overwhelming, and it has affected every aspect of my life—my academic performance, daily functioning, relationships, and self-confidence. I now prefer isolation, and I've even begun to lose my ability to communicate, as speaking feels difficult and words no longer come easily.