u/airplanesarecool1616

I am so frustrated right now and honestly feel a little crazy due to all of the hormones I'm still on (beta on Tuesday).

This is my second FET. First failed to implant. I am currently 7dp6dt (fully medicated) with my second FET and had a negative FRER this morning and again this afternoon. The whiteness was so stark it was almost blinding. I know you can still get a positive at day 8 or 9, or even on beta day - but as a realist, I realize this isn't likely and even if it happens the outcome may not be great.

I'm using donor eggs (donor is 27) and had one Day 6 5AB and one Day 6 5BB and neither implanted. Before my 2nd transfer I did a round of gnarly antibiotics just in case it was chronic endometritis (which I had two years ago) causing the failure to implant. Everything else has looked and measured great.

I should mention that none of the blasts with donor eggs were PGT-A tested. I'm in my 40's and made ~6 blasts with my own eggs across three ER cycles, all aneuploid.

I'm just so frustrated. Luckily I have a "live birth guarantee" plan with the egg bank so I have more tries, but just ugh. It feels like I'll never be on the right side of statistics and I feel like time is not on my side right now.

This entire process sucks sometimes.