u/alienreader_29

I'm going to try to keep this short, TLDR at the bottom. A few years ago, I had this experience happen that I've only ever told a few people. In a dark part of my life, I experienced a sort of calling. The only way I could explain it was that I had answers given to me that appeared as my own thoughts and drove me to act immediately. I asked why I was here, about the problems of the world, about why I was hurting, and was given the answer of I was here to help and that I was hurting because I was too afraid to act. Love was a big theme and spreading kindness. Anytime I think of this experience, I feel like my body gets almost cold but not in a bad way. I get goosebumps on my arms and I start to tear up.

The thing is, I'm exhausted. I do think the answers were right, but I feel like my heart is emotionally giving out and my body is failing. I do take lots of time to care for myself, but suddenly it's failing too. I want to connect with the force that told me these answers, but I don't know how. I feel blocked. I feel this yearning to go home and I feel so deeply alone.

Does anyone else feel exhausted? Or blocked? Does anyone have any advice? I appreciate any response.

TLDR: had a channeled message come in a few years ago that told me I was placed here to spread love. Ever since then, I've felt lonely, exhausted, hopeless, and like I want to go home. I haven't been able to connect with any higher forces. Any tips?

This is something I have been wondering for a while. There is someone in our system who is the only one that seems to be able to communicate with another alter. This is relatively new for us, especially since there have only been four known people in our system. Having a potential fifth alter that can only access one of the four people makes it a little harder to learn about them. We have also been wondering if this is potentially a figment of that altar's imagination. We know this alter only appears to them when they are distressed and it looks like the alter can hear them (we keep a journal so we can see what happened when somebody fronted). The rest of us have not been able to communicate with this altar at all.

Has anyone had this experience before or anything similar?

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