u/allgoodthings96

I cant get these calls with Ryan out of my head. I shouldn't be surprised that a POS like him would reach out to someone in prison to be his wife. But idk, I always thought he was pretty much harmless, albeit, pathetic. Maybe true crime has desensitized me and yes, the call about the gf and the baby was horrific, but for some reason it didnt get under my skin like the racism. It's really disturbing someone like him is able to walk around in society and work with our most vulnerable and feel comfortable enough to say the things he said, on a recorded line no less!
I know that compared to all the other salacious things it can get overshadowed but I cant stop thinking about it. It was awful how he delighted in every racist thing she agreed with him on. Im not a POC so I never really realized or thought about how there are people among us carrying these awful thoughts. It makes me so sad that young POC would be exposed to hatred like his at their school by a teacher. It's like you have to lose a part of your innocence to protect yourself from people like him and it makes me so sad and mad. Im sorry if Im rambling, or if I come off as obnoxious or ignorant, as a person with white privilege I have just never seen something so ugly like this in my face. I just found those calls very disturbing. Ever since I heard them I have felt this dark, yucky energy.