Nightmares and Christian Guilt 😞
Hello all— This is somewhat a seeking reassurance somewhat asking for advice post? I am a brand spanking new Aphrodite devotee after realizing she’s been calling to me through various ways practically my entire existence. Recently I laid down to sleep after a hard day, and said a prayer to her as a nightly devotional, and asked her to protect me from nightmares…
Unfortunately though that night I actually did have a nightmare, a very bad one at that 😭 It is extremely rare that I ever dream let alone have nightmares, and this one really scared me. However: I don’t think it was a sign of sorts from Aphrodite…
I have a lot of guilt from my childhood growing up in the Christian church, and whilst I personally believe in Omnism (the belief that there is truth in all paths) I still feel that constant nagging in the back of my head. It makes me feel shame both in the eyes of Aphrodite, and of Christianity… There is a voice from those Christian days telling me that my Goddess is not real, that she’s a demon in disguise, and though I CERTAINLY don’t believe that (To me Aphrodite is the most gentle, kind, pure, and angelic being I’ve ever come across) It still frightens me to keep hearing. I believe that this is where the true root of my nightmare came from. I don’t believe it was a rejection from Aphrodite (though I’m always up for interpretation if anyone feels otherwise, or has other insight!!) however I think it was simply guilt.
If any other people here had a similar path… how did you resolve these feelings of guilt/shame? How did you cope with them? I’m beginning to feel it’s interfering with my relationship with Lady Aphrodite and it makes me feel so ashamed and sad 😞