u/altprince

I am a student currently making my major in comp science. I have -500$ to my name and i still got unpaid overdue bills i need to settle. My paycheck amounts to only what i have to pay for my education, which is about 1700$ monthly. Meaning i’ll always have my balance in the negatives because my bills amount to more than i earn in bad and good days.

I see people getting rich by selling fake courses, selling onlyfans, buying expensive shit with drug money, while i gave away my only 2$ to some girl in need because i am fucking kind. Influencers earning pocket money in tens of thousands while a thousand could literally change my life for the better and derail me from constant overdraft fees by my bank. People out here earning thousands without a degree or nothing simply because they got lucky or said the “right” things at the right time infront of a camera. I know not everyone is like that but when you look at the majority of internets most hated people, they still make up to millions.

If i ever tried to do anything slightly shady i just know god would make a perfect example out of me.

People are out here complaining about not being able to go on a cruise or afford some hotels while i gave away my only 2$ because i am fucking kind.

Kindness doesn’t pay, being an asshole pays more appearently. But i refuse to be one because unfortunately i have some amount of decency and a somewhat okay moral compass. Yeah, being normal fucking sucks.

idk if this seem’s incel-y or not and frankly i do not care. I genuinely sometimes wonder why i even stick to my degree, why do i want to commit through it knowing damn well the job market is gonna be a shithole even after i get my degree. In the hundreds of job offers i looked through none of them seem to have a need for any type of junior dev anyways. All my friends frequently book vacations to go at and i keep having to deny because i can’t afford it and need pretty much all of the hours from my part time job i can get just to survive.

How are any other students faring on here? I just needed to vent my frustration out, it is just so tiring.

i genuinely resent this feeling

ain’t no fucking way 2017 was 9 years ago, it just simply isn’t true

I knew she was troubled. I tried, not good enough. But for some unknown stupid fucking reason i couldn’t figure out it was this bad

i couldn’t and now you’re just gone. Not a word, not a mention

I really fancied you, you know?

you’ll know. Once the the time is right.