hey guys, so i've got a PAC012 and i love it to bits, and i'm thinking of modding it. are wilkinson WOCHB-B pickups any good? i've read good reviews about them, and i know trev wilkinson is a legend but i'm torn between fleor and wilkinson.
I was a bright, but albeit lazy student until the 9th grade. when covid hit, my mental health took a turn for the worst. depressive episodes, suicidal tendencies and attempts, self image issues, the whole package.
Come 10th, in the first half i was again, a lazy, procrastinating, depressed mess. my father is a strict-when-needed kinda guy, so he was there to push me to somehow score in the mid 70s.
I went for tuitions and took online coaching in the second half, and got my %age up to 89.
Glossing over 11th,12th and JEE because that was frankly, a disaster filled with tears, fights and railway tracks. the one plus point was that i got in a relationship during 12th.
I somehow fought my way into a tier-something state government college. CSE, of course. because what else would my family let me pick?
In the first semester, i was pretty happy because i was in a new environment, and had a lot of friends, and was in a relationship. completely ignored my academics. Similar stuff in the second semester, but my mental health was rapidly coming back to the usual and i was becoming an irritable mess.
Then i moved to a PG(S3), because my dad got transferred. at this point, my mental health was almost at square one, and i had almost lost all my friends because they considered me inferior due to my various arrears(i think).
Then my 3 year relationship ended because she cheated on me for months behind my back and i was at a new low. attempted suicide multiple times, and in the end i just ran away from college in the middle of an S4 class, got into a train and went home.
Saw a psychiatrist, got diagnosed with BPD, ADHD and PDD. i have an arrear in my 1st sem, 4 in the 2nd sem, 4 in the 3rd sem. I'm so lost on what to do. i'm too weak mentally to attempt again, but too exhausted to continue living.