I need visual stimulation to masturbate but porn is meh
I used to get aroused after watching porn and had no problem masturbating; pretty harmless and basic. But now I'm finding myself not really aroused by porn bc it's too polishe. By that I mean a young girl w fake boobs and a young guy w a big dick and doing whatever (bj, pussy licking, doggy, cowgirl, anal, cum in mouth/face, etc) and while it's still kinda hot I'd much rather prefer to video my gf and create our own porn so I can watch her/us instead.
We're both 54yo and past our prime. We don't have perfect hard bodies, we have normal bodies for our age. She's not fat/obese but has a little extra around her hips/butt like most women in thier 50s but I think she's beautiful and sexy and love her body even though she doesn't. She is very self conscious and thinks she's fat. Granted, she doesn't have the body of a 25yo porn star but I think she looks amazing bc she's real. And her pussy/clit is beautiful and delicious. She prefers the dark and no lights or sun light. She's hesitant to let me film her/us not bc of privacy but more so bc of body embarrassment. The majority of our sex is at night and everything is dark or kinda dark (candle light) and we've had morning sex a few times with minimal daylight but it's not her thing. I've told her 100x that she looks incredible and I want to watch her instead of porn. She knows her pussy is small and cute so I know she's seen herself on video before w previous men when she was younger and that's probably bc she was younger and thinner and more daring. Any help appreciated.