I can’t have sex
I can’t even flirt back with any man in real life. People would flirt and I’d be too professional at work. I like them a lot . I can’t do it. I feel like a 10 year old girl when I’m 31 years old.
I hear stories of my friends doing sexual acts but I just can’t even when I’m so in love with a person. It makes them feel rejected and I repel them. I keep repeling them as if I mean it. But I am miserable about it…. I’m so obsessed with my boss but he doesn’t give me the appreciation that I deserve he flirted with me and I just rejected and didn’t flirt back when he didn’t raise me. I imagine I won’t even do it if he gave me a raise. I’m too aware of my effort and experience at work that I consider it an insult. He is married and has a kid …. But I know he is attracted to me I’ve been working for four years. He hides me from people and meetings but keeps me to do projects and send it to him… possession ??
What’s wrong with me please ?? Even when I imagine myself being married I can’t picture myself doing sexual acts and showing my body to my husband. I don’t think I’ll ever be okay with it happening but I have. A strong desire to have sex but I don’t do it when it’s supposed to happen ?