u/anna_there

After 6 years of “is it adhd or is it not?” I was diagnosed last week: it is adhd.

Ever since that official diagnosis it seems like some symptoms seem to have become worse (I know, a week is not that long). Like I am more sensitive to sounds, my mind seems to be even more scattered, etc. This didn’t happen suddenly, it started actually a few months ago, before the diagnostic process even was reconsidered (I was just in therapy for other stuff).

Now I wonder: could it be that I just notice it more because I now know for sure? Are these just things coming up that I used to suppress/ mask and now feel like it is “ok”? Or (what I am afraid of) is this like a self fulfilling prophecy, like “now I am diagnosed, now I need to act like it”? Like I am an imposter…

To be clear: I don’t consciously decide “this sound bothers me now” or “oh, since I have adhd this will diatract me now” or “I have adhd, I have to react/ act this way”! And I would not mind having a brain that just works and doesn’t feel like this, but it’s all I know.

Did anyone experience something similar? Or knows some kind of explanation? And if yes, how do you cope with this? Or any coping methods in general?

Thank you in advance :)

After 6 years of “is it adhd or is it not?” I was diagnosed last week: it is adhd.

Ever since that official diagnosis it seems like some symptoms seem to have become worse (I know, a week is not that long). Like I am more sensitive to sounds, my mind seems to be even more scattered, etc. This didn’t happen suddenly, it started actually a few months ago, before the diagnostic process even was reconsidered (I was just in therapy for other stuff).

Now I wonder: could it be that I just notice it more because I now know for sure? Are these just things coming up that I used to suppress/ mask and now feel like it is “ok”? Or (what I am afraid of) is this like a self fulfilling prophecy, like “now I am diagnosed, now I need to act like it”? Like I am an imposter…

To be clear: I don’t consciously decide “this sound bothers me now” or “oh, since I have adhd this will diatract me now” or “I have adhd, I have to react/ act this way”! And I would not mind having a brain that just works and doesn’t feel like this, but it’s all I know.

Did anyone experience something similar? Or knows some kind of explanation?

Thank you in advance :)

Hi, I recently failed a class for the second time and I have one try left or else I am going to be exmatriculated and that is it, 4 years of uni for nothing. This past semester I have been trying to get it together, got my offical ADHD diagnosis (5 days after I failed the exam, at 24 y/o) and did all the things like „this pretty bottle will fix it, I will be able to focus when I drink more“ or „I need to have this pen, this will solve it“(didn’t work, who could have guessed) and tried over and over to „start over“ with new plans, which I couldn’t stick to for more than 2 days.

I am often stuck and feel like I can not start, even though I know I not only should, but need. Part of that is me being afraid to fail or that I am not smart enough, too stupid to understand the material.

Also I find it hard to stick to it. It feels like I have no energy, etc. It’s a vicious circle, I know…"I can’t get myself to study" leads to "I feel stupid" leads to "I will fail this again“ leads to „I failed“ leads to „I am stupid“ leads back to „I can’t get myself to study (bc I am afraid to fail)“

I feel too overwhelmed during lectures, my notes don’t make any sense after, yet I feel like just sitting there and trying to listen drains all my energy for the day.

Main problem: this lecture in particular is an online lecture with other units online too work through before the lecture (they are basically taped lectures) and I really tried, but never got through the material before each lecture in question.

So in the coming semester I need to get it right. I need to find a way to stay on track and to stick with it. I can’t fail another time. I don’t want to fail another time. I already feel like a huge disappointment to my boyfriend (long distance due to uni for most of the week) and my parents.

Does anyone have any ideas or advice on how to do that? Staying on track? Or any study hacks in general? Things that worked? Any methods?

I really need it. Thank you in advance :)