u/armed_refrigerator

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Ive had a friendship breakup a few months ago, me and this girl were really close, we shared the same interests, views, personality etc. i really thought she was my soulmate, but then we had a fallout, its complicated but i thought it had ended in a truce, she said she wanted to take a break from social media for bout a month, i agreed thinking id get to see her again, bout a month later i found out she was talking to all her friends and it was only me that she had stopped talking to, it hurt and i may have lashed out a bit, she didnt try to reach out further, i told her i was incredibly upset with and didnt know if i could forgive her, because she had obviously displayed signs she did not like or want to talk to me again, now, a normal person would probably back off and move on after this, but i just missed her too much, i swallowed my pride and tried to reach out multiple times, i told her if i had hurt her in any way i was ready to take full accountability and apologise i just wanted to know what i did that made her avoid me so much, recently i unblocked her and texted her just to get blocked.

I don't want advice on getting her back, because shes made it clear she doesn't wanna associate with me anymore. And i dont want to keep harassing her.

I just can't seem to move on, i miss her everytime our favourite artists release new music, or if i have a rant about the current state of the world, or when i want someone to talk about our culture together.

I have many great friends but no one in my circle to fill the role she played.

I wish things hadnt gone the way it did, i agree in this situation i may have done things i shouldn't have, i agree i was wrong, but i just wanna know what i did to be punished so severely.

I keep hoping this is a temporary fallout, that ill find her again in the future, her and my other friends are still in contact and i get updates every once in a while from them.

And honestly I feel jealous when i see them having a relationship with her that i cant.

I just pray for one of two things

Either she forgives me

Or i finally forget her

im 15 and I was diagnosed with general anxiety disorder last year in october after i hadn't gone to school for a month and my parent dragged me to a psychiatrist. I had been prescribed seratonin antidepressants but i forgot to take them and it's been 6 months.

Recently i got sick and couldn't go to school for 8 days. Now that I'm totally recovered, I still couldn't go today because i was too anxious,

my anxiety flares up immensely when it comes to school mostly and sometimes other important events, sometimes i can brave through but most of the times either im consumed by either the fear or the physical symptoms until i cancel everything, usually when my anxiety flares up i get really nauseous and feel like crying, sometimes i start hyperventilating. I know for a fact that if i go to school its gonna be alright since my school is very accommodating and i dont rlly get bullied or anything and ik that not going is gonna make it worse but i can't stop the anxiety,

I have considered asking my parents to take me back to my psychiatrist to prescribe the pills again but im nervous, i asked them before school started, i had this feeling of doom for weeks before school started and id start shakin and felt nauseous, but then school actually started and it was alright. I'm just scared that since I'm not constantly anxious like ive read online and that it goes away when i actually face my fears my parents might say I'm overreacting and it's just me being nervous. And sometimes i feel like my condition isn't that serious and that I'm just lazy and blowing it out of proportion. It does cause me significant trouble when it flares up before important events but is it worth it to go to a psychiatrist? Ive talked to everyone around me and i feel like no one gets me.

Are my symptoms serious enough to get them checked out?