was this a grief-induced psychosis?
Hi, so for context, I was officially diagnosed years ago with major depressive, generalized anxiety, and borderline (though my current therapist thinks it’s more cptsd, tomato tomato). I can talk to my therapist about these things, but I’ve been holding off and just thinking about it. We’ve also had some difficulties with our schedules.
Earlier this year, I lost a very close loved one to cancer. The last month was very intense, with taking him back and forth to the hospital, giving him major meds to ease his pain for the last days. It was weeks of constant anxiety like I’ve NEVER felt before. Then after he passed, it was then a just as intense depression.
But then I started getting paranoid. I thought I also had cancer, I thought my coworkers were stalking me, I thought my computer had some sort of tracking device implanted by the military. It didn’t help that I’d been working overtime for months at the worst job I’ve ever had in my life. This constant anxiety state has slowly gone away, but I think I’m still processing the absolute shit show that was. I’ve never experienced something like that before.
I’m not looking to diagnose myself via reddit, I just wanted to see if anyone has had a similar experience.