u/baukmenace

Fall

There is no beauty to be seen here
Everything I do, everything I try
Ends up in a failure

My mental health declines
Telling myself I am useless
That everything I do is for nothing
Because I am not enough

I am not good enough to win
I am just good for the fall
The fall from reality

Trauma turned me to psychosis
Psychosis turned me into a sad little bitch
And this bitch went through hell
I am still alive

Don’t know how tho
So many attempts
But even in that I failed
They say its God’s will

He will save me
He feels my pain
Saves the damaged

But,
What if I am too damaged
To be saved
I looked for help in the wrong way
In the wrong people

And now I do not feel anything but pain
Pain comes but doesn’t go

[Verse 1]
It happened, No, It didn’t?
But maybe, Yes, It did?
All the questions asked in my head
Trying to find the way into sanity

They say I am insane
‘I know you are lying and
You know it too so just stop being sick in the head’

[Pre-Chorus]
I keep turning it over
In my head again and again
The truth holds a name
That won’t come out

[Chorus]
It happened, didn’t it?
I keep asking
It happened, didn’t it?
My mind keeps crashing
It happened, didn’t it?
(please tell me)
It happened, didn’t it?
I’m still here, asking

[Verse 2]
They don’t believe me
His hands over me
Me screaming
Scared
Loving and hating him
After all he is my grandfather

She knew
Hoped I would not remember
But that’s when I realized that she, really,
She knew

[Pre-Chorus]
I kept my face still
I kept my voice small
But something in me
Was breaking the wall

[Chorus]
It happened, didn’t it?
I keep asking
It happened, didn’t it?
My mind keeps crashing
It happened, didn’t it?
(please tell me)
It happened, didn’t it?
I’m still here, asking

[Bridge]
Loving and hating him
After all he is my grandfather
Loving and hating her
After all she is my grandmother

I wanted a witness
I wanted the light
I wanted one person
To say it will be fine

[Final Chorus]
It happened, didn’t it?
I keep asking
It happened, didn’t it?
My mind keeps crashing
It happened, didn’t it?
(please tell me)
It happened, didn’t it?
I’m still here, asking